♀ Kathryn Soo ♥

Aaron, acting like a south park guy... Lolz

Michelle McGeeHan... my other poser partner... lolz... :)))) luv ya lots michyyy...

Aaron and Michelle... hip hop ?? lolz... My poser friends... ;))

Me, Elaine, Michelle.... we were outside our lecturer room... waiting for our lecturer.. And we got bored.. so we cam-whore ! :))

Aaron and Jason... These two ALWAYS BULLY me.... Aaron is the man with ermm multi language ;) and jason is well jason...pa pe like hell !! :P

Aaron and Jason... Brother for life huhhh ?? -_-""" hahahaa..... so jason, r u from Victoris Secret, LA Senza or Women Secret !? i knw u r reading this :P

-_-""""" Guys can be posers as well ...

Kelly and Jason......... :)) they cant stand a day without teasing each other ... :P

Me and Jason :) poser 1 + poser 2 = super nice pic :P

Elaine and Michelle :))

Michyyyy and jasonnnnnnnn... pls jason, dun act cute :PP

aaron with his tattoo and his wannabe 50 cent look.... check out the sunflower on his hand.. i drew it...love my sunflower :))

Michelle and mua... Jason said i look pa pe ere..but tat's only his opinion... no one cares anyway :P

Excuse the double entry... the 1st pic, i
forgot to rotate before uploading it.. :( Mich and mua...

Jason, me and michyyy :))

Me and Jason..... a.k.a peanut :P

Michelle and Daryll....

Me and Jasonnn .... Jason, nice pose huh ??? lolz....

Michelle and jasonn...

Michelle and muaa.... i love tis pic tho.. cos i look shy ere :P :P lolzz... and kian wee, we r not doing anything kinky k ... Tsk tsk.. u think too much le :P

Daryll :) a candid shot.. busy studying :P

Last but not least, a poser pic of me :)) Sherman said i look like the dutch lady with my white headband -_""" do i ??? :(
All these pictures were taken in the library ... hehe. .we were supposed to be studying.. but ... but.. we taking a break from studying :)

Happy 19 th Birthday to my darling Elaine Heung !!!
:))))
I remember knowing her way back then..
But only gotten close to her in Form4 and 5..
Where we will sit together and gossip..
She's my hang-kai kaki, clubbing kaki, gossip kaki, my partner in crime..
And also someone i will lean on when i need her to..
Im proud to have a hot chick as my bestie..
Where everyone wana know her :))
I cant post picture babe..
So excuse the post with no pictures aite??
Once again, today its ur day..
So go crazy aite? :))
U r officially 19..
Love ya lots...
hugss and kisses.. :))

Been staying back in the library for the past few days ...
:)
My frens, (yea, that includes u Sherve!! :P ) were so suprised when i told them i stayed back in the library til late to study... lolz
yea.. i know..
The old wei san will never even stayed back to study...
well, i told u guys..
I had reformed into a new person...
Someone better, i hope? :))

Eventhough our study group is not that progressive..
But we did study !!
And i understand econs more..
Thanx to Jason !!!
* c.. i din insult u in my blog anymore, Jason.. u r praised in my blog now*
ngeks...
Let c...
Jason is good at teaching econs..
Seriously... listening to him is better than listening to the lecturer...
:D
* a big applause to Jason * hahaha

Yesterday, Michelle bought cam..
And today Jason bought cam...
Naturally, we go crazyyy ...
When we have cam in front of us, then u knw
*ngeks*
WE took millions of pics..
:)))))

Im waiting for the pics from Michelle and Jason :)
but... but...
its pointless..
Because my blog cannot upload pics...
I stil dont know why...
Shittt............
Well, i guess i just have to upload it in my multiple ???
Anyone know why my blog cant upload pics ???
Kellyy.. Von ??
Helpppppppp

“Sometimes you might wonder how it is possible to fulfill requirements to be both tough and tender, strong yet vulnerable, in order to win what you want. It seems so easy to overdo one or the other. But a wise man once said, 'I may not always walk the straight and narrow, but I cross it as often as I can.’ Just do the best you can. As long as you don’t stay on one side all the time, you’ll do well enough.”

Been having late nights for the past few days.........
LAte night of studying..
Not partying...
Finals in 2 weeks time..
Freaking panic..

I need to concentrate..
I need to concentrate...

I think i jinx people..
It's like everytime a plan was planned, it ownt turn out..
Maybe its cos of my bad aura ?
No matter what..
Everytime a plan fail..
i think its cos of me..

Seriously mannnn..........
Freakinggg helll

Im frigging exhausted..
I spend the whole day, almost the whole day staying back in the library to study ...
The library is dam cold..
I was wearing a top with a jacket over it and Jason's sweater..
But yet im feeling dam cold..
Hmmm, im so scared that i might come down with something..
I cant..
Exams are in less than 2 weeks ...
Im freaking out..
Im trying hard to study ..
And absorb as much as possible....

Im freaking out...
Freaking exams..
Im not prepared...

Im fucking gona fail my finals..
This morning, i said to Zhi that i will get high distinction (HD) for management, accounts and econs...
I guess its dam ego of me...
I dont think i can do it..........

Well, on the bright side, i turn down an invitation to watch Da Vincci Code, which i been want to watch it since i heard about it..
Sighss...
Sorri Von and Kelly for ffk you guys.....
=(
Will made it up with you guys...
I need to sacrifice for finals...
WE party in LAngkawi aite ?? hehee...

I freak my friends out....
They said that i need to calm down..
Shittt...
Im like a mad gal..
KEep studying...
This has never happen to me..
I dont panic..
I never panic....
But
Now..

The word panic is floating in my head...
Wtf...........

But... i know i can do it !!
I hope...
sighsss

When someone hold your hand, you feel warmth and hope in your hand...
When someone tell you it's gona be alrite, you feel safe and secure...
When someone stays beside you when you need the person to, you feel that your life is gona be alrite after all...

But....

If those words were not spoken to you...
If those are just what you hope a person will say to you...
All your hopes, dreams are crush..
And you are bought back to reality...
When reality strike, you will know...
And you cant lost what you never have in the first place....
So there....
How can a person mourn something that was never hers/his in the first place........

Ritee?
Or so a person can mourn about it?

It's complicated..
You spend your whole life trying to figure out that thing..
And spend the other half trying to make it right..
But....
It's not your call........

And I realized that what's the use of trying to figure it out...?
What's the use of even trying to get so work up about it ?
When you got other things to care about.......

You cant be in your dreams forever...
You will have to wake up one day...
And face the world..
Face the reality...
Face the truth.......

Truth can hurt a person but wouldnt you rather know the truth ?
Than not knwoing at all...

Failing is part of life........
You failed to learn your lessons.....
So once you failed, it doesnt mean you are useless,
IT just meant that it's time for you to learn something new.
Something that's gona be useful to you in future.......

So be brave when you fail....
Be brave when the world is going against you..
Because you know no matter what, you have yourself...
You have you..

Im sneezing like hell right now....
Having a really bad cold and fever...
My throat is feeling itchy.... and painful..
It's just not my day today...
But thank god i handed in my last assignment for the sem...
Who said copying answers are easy?
I spend the whole night transfering accounts info into my final draft..
I copied until 3plus in the morning..
Sighs..
Which explain why im having a bad cold right now..
:((
I felt so free after handed in my assignments...
Wait.. scratch that...
Im stil freaking stress..
Finals is in 3 weeks time..
And i know shit bout accounts and stats and management...
Frigggingg hell..
So gona fail mannnnnnnnnn
Waaaa.. wth.......
I dun wana fail ..
Im serious.. im so gona be kiasu dy..
Shit... i never thought the day will come..
The day that i become kiasu and realized the importance of not failing..
If it were last time, i wont give a shit about it..
I would just said, fail fail la...
But now, im working my ass off...
Well, trying to........
Im trying hard to chill so i can concentrate more..
But that fella Kian Wee is freaking me out..
Keep said finals coming wheyyyy..
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaa............... :(((((
Ooo.. i met Wei Ping today in this shop called pink shop..
i forgot to blog about this shop...
But anyway, it's the only shop that i find it nice in monash....
Well, there's still the orange shop and white shop...
But the atmosphere in pink is better... ;))
You must be curious why all these shops are called pink, white or orange ?
Technically, nobody knows why..
They said it's cos its painted in the respective color with the name..
So pink shop is painted pink, orange shop is painted orange and white is painted white..
Which is where the names are from :)
I miss Wei Ping so much :)
She's still looking sizzling hot :)
Did a bit of catch up with her........
And she left to go Kim Gary....

Anyway, i forgot to blog about my weekend .. hehee
Last friday, 12 may, was a Wesak Day..
Obviously, its a holiday...
Supposed to meet up with Michelle, Elaine and Kelly to do account...
But in the end, i went over to Kelly's place and we went shopping in Pyramid.
* ngeks*
Me and Kel did some emo talk while waiting for Von and Justin to pick us up..
:P
Lolz.......
About 2plus, nearly 3, Justin, Von's vf and Von pick us up from Kelly's..
And Von's younger bro, came along.........
I bought a off shoulder top and mini skirt :)
Kel wanted to buy the top as well but she being 'pa pe' said she dun wan get the same top as me..
Fineeeee...............
:P
We walked around until it was nearly 5 plus ?
and we got tired...
We went to McD to take a rest..
And Von had something to eat there..
Being me, i did not eat anything in McD :P
We were waiting for Kian Wee to come so we can have dinner...
So i took a picture with Von...
Im gona upload it here and pray that it will appear...
sighsss...
Kian Wee came at bout 6 plus.......
And we made a move and walked to Kim Gary....
Kelly wanted to get a pair of shoes in Nose and Von wana take a look at shoes..
So me and Kian Wee went to get table for them....
I had supreme curry spaghetti .... Yummmmmmmm...
The first time trying it... and i love it......
Well, minus the part that i had to suffer after eating it..
I was coughing like mad after i ate........
:(
Oh not forgetting, Jason came afterall...
Celaka,.. said kenot come..........
Lie to me !!! sial .......... :P
After dinner, we went for yum cha session in Kopitiam, Taipan..
I had some tea that's dam milky....
Seriously..
But i love it :))))))))))))
The whole time they were insulting me like hell...
Ohh... and jason bought his fren..
The fren of his is not bad...
As in he's friendly..........
Make me and Kel feel welcome.........
After talking for hours... i felt tired..
So Kian Wee fetch me and Kel back home..
* a big thank you * :)

On Saturday, I woke up to the sound of hammer banging..
Wtf.........
At 9 plus in the MORNING, my neighbour had some god knowsd what work to do..
And someone started hammering on the wall..
Arghhhh..........
I had a late night the night before..
And now i had to wake up early on a saturday morning ???
shityyy.........
I did some studying...
And fall asleep on my bed :P
hahaa.........
Later in the evening, i went Lot 10 to check out the white guess bag that Von was dyuing for :)
But...but.. it had been sold..
Sorriii Von............

On Sunday, it was Mother's Day...........
Happy Mother's Day mummmy !!!!!!!!!
Eventho i had my mood swings, my mom still put up with me.......
which make me love my mummy more...........
We went Klcc to had our dinner..
In some Thai Restaurant that i cant be bother to remember the name :P
The food is nice....
So had a yummy dinner..
I been eating alot for the past few days...
Which explains why my jeans are tighter..
Sighsss.. :((
And after dinner, i went to Isetan to check out the white guess bag for Von
Unfortunately, it had run out of stock there as well..
Von must be pretty bummed bout it..
:(
Von, we shall hunt down the bag for u ya? :)
Had a pretty fattening weekend...
hehee.. LOl
ALriteeeyy... my pictures stil cant be upload here...
Anyone can tell me why i cant upload pics in my blog anymore??
:((
Sighsss..........
:((((((((

My mood is killing me for the past few days...
As Kelly had said,
Im getting mood swings like hell..
One sec im so dam emo until everyone was so afraid to even approach me
And the next sec, i will be laughing like mad...
I get piss easily now...
Seriously... i duno why..
But a tiny thing pisses me off........
Arghhh...
Stress is making me feel like someone else..
Someone had take over my body..

I was never this stress in my life..
Not even back in high school during PMR & SPM time..
And college life for me last year ??
Super chilling plus the occasion stress only...
And stress for other things not exams...

Now in monash, im getting worked up..
Im getting stress easily....
Stress is like my second thing in life...

And when im stress, i get migrane..
My mood swings are crazy...
Im sure Jason, Kelly, Aaron, Elaine and Michelle can tell you this...
They put up with my occasionally temper...
Sorrry you guyss...
:((
I promise i wil make up for it...
During Langkawi trip ??? :)
hehee

And now im getting piss as im doing my account assignments..
That fucker writtings is seriously dam freaking hard to read..
I mean gosh ,wat the hell its his problem wheyy..
He really think that the lecturer can read?????
Gosh...
Yea,, yea...
I know i sound so ungrateful but at times u know..
You gotto be selfish...

In your life, there's this study that is known as character study.....
Character study is when u study the behaviour and characteristics of a person..
Including yourself...
There are times when you tell yourself it is better to be yourself than to pretend to be someone else you are not....
And that's way you usually do..
You learn that you just have to be true to yourself...
That's all you need in your life..
But for the past few weeks, you learnt that being true to yourself is not enough..
People will just take a look at you and laugh...
Laugh at the silliness ........
I felt that the crazier you act, the worse you feel..

You spend lucnh time, watching those people pass by you..
Studying their character..
The way they behave..
You envy them for the carefree life...
You envy the girls because of their confidence..
You envy the guys for their friendship with each other...

And you realized that living life to the fullest is not enough.....
It's never enough....

You watch shows that makes you cry, not cos you adore all these shows..
it's cause you want to feel better after crying........
You watch horror movie because you want to hug that special someone of yours.......
You watch love shows because you feel that the shows always end up happily ever after..
Something you want but unable to get it..

You want to forget about it..
You want to forgive and forget..
But its not that easy..
You can forget about it
But the memories are still here.........
Everywhere you go, you remember it.......
You remember what and when you guys did at that certain place.......

You walked away feeling that the devil in you defeated you..
You feel worse..
But you just kept it to yourself..
Becasue you wouldnt want people to pity you..
And feeding you with craps...
Craps you get tired of listening........
And all you want to do is just ask them to fuck off........
But... but...

At times, you start to wander what you did wrong...
Why some people act this way........
Was it your fault or ??
Sighs...

I feel exhausted with all these..
Seriously..
I need a long break from everything..........

All nonsense questions keep popping up..
Questions that you felt that you need the answers to it
But ... sometimes you might think that its easier to just let it be.............

I tried..
Posting pictures ...
But the sentence, pictures not valid keep appearing..
Wth...
argh...
I got so many pictures to post...
Sighhss.............
There's something wrong with my blog..
But..but...
Being the clueless me..
I don't know what went wrong..
Yesterday in pyramid, Von's bf, Justin mentioned something about html or something like tat..
I was like, "Huh???"
Now i know why Jason alwis buli me..
Sighss...

Everyday is a bang kathryn day wheyy..
Seriously...
Last time Kelly was the victim..
And now me ???
Wat the.....
Like yesterday in Kim Gary, i happpily minding my own business, eating my food..
They have to tease me..
And kelly, u not nice dy!! :P
Helped ur 'honey' but no me !!
:(((((((((((((((((

And stupiiddd Jason...
Wats with telling everyone that im a bimbo..
Im not..
Well, even i am..
Im special..
hahaha
*ngeks*

And no hokkien and mandarin language please..
I tak faham tau ?
:P

Im stressing...
Im having migrane every single day.......
F***
Panadol work no miracle on me anymore.......
Dammmm.............

Excusee my last post...
Everyone seems to be asking me am i alright..
i am..
i seriosuly am.....
:))))
It's just a phrase im going through at that moment..
Im feeling better...
I just woke up feeling cranky...
And now i know why i woke up feeling cranky...
Kelly will know why... *ngeks*

Here i am...
Trying so hard to figure out about the account assignment
But wtf wheyy...
Not a single clue about it..
Im so in a shittyy situation ....
Sighss........
And i cant sleep eventho im exhausted..
And i know why
I had tea just now..
I din know that i cant sleep after drinking tea..
I mean i know i cant sleep after i had coffee.. but tea ?!??
Gosh.. its like a new discovery for me wheyyyy..........
Sighssss
Friggging hell
On a bright note, i went Sp today with kelly, von, her bf and her brother...
And me and kelly bought this gorgeous skirt that's seriously a good bargain..
And i like.. i like..
hahaa
hahahaa

When you go crazy, do you KNOW you're going crazy?
Do you retain some objective part of yourself that watches it happen?
Or does the fact that you're still thinking coherently enought to wonder if you're going crazy mean you're still sane?
Who knows if all those nineteenth-century writers who ended up stark raving mad ever stopped to THINK,
"Hmmm,this poem is pretty out there, maybe i better take it easy on the opium for a while"
Or if Van Gogh said to himself, "gee, I wonder if chicks REALLY dig getting bloody, severed ears delivered to them in a box. Perhaps i should just stick to flowers and candy... Nah. Too unoriginal."
What brought this on ?
Well, in the past couple of days, I've pretty much convinced myself that I'm certifiable....
Otherwise, how could i possible explain my random infatuation with someone I don't know well or should i said someone opposite of me?
Maybe i havent been possessed with the urge to chop off any bodily appendages and give them to (insert word).
But i turn into a complete blithering idiot around .....
But then, maybe im not insane.
I did promise myself i'd make some changes in my life this year.
And if i've changed enough to fall for somebody like ..., maybe it just means there's more to me than bland, predictable Kathryn.
Then again, maybe i've just taken the first step on a road that ends with my ear in a box..
Sighsss..........

Stupid econs assignment !!!
This is the first thing that came into my mind..
I finished doing my econs..
But Kelly said the graphs might be wrong..
I dont give a shit anymore..
Im just gona go to uni tmw to take my frens graphs.. ;)
And come to think of it..
SHit, i duno i got enough print quota to print my assignments anot !!!!!
So here i am printing some of the assignments first...
And while waiting, why not blog ??
:))
Had a quiet weekend...
:)
I feel like sleeping right now...
Listening to Westlife-Miss you, Steven Curtis Chapman- I will Be Here...
Feeling emo + tired + cranky + having major headache & sorethroat...
Im still feeling confused...

Do you ever had that feeling that whenever you want that certain thing, you cant get it ??
The more you are craving for it, the more you cant get it...
Is it always true in your case??
Well, its true for mine...
I hate it !!
Aaron told me that i have to be more selfish sometimes ..
We cant always put others first..
Hmmm... i know..
But sometimes its better this way huhh ??
If you be selfish, people accuse you of being too selfish...
But if you don't, people take advantage of u..
Sighsss...
Its hard...

Well, like they said, life is never easy huh ??

So live life to the fullest ;)

I cam-whore alot for the past few days..
BUT...
My blog is going crazy...
Posting a pics take at least half an hour..
Sighsss...

I think im coming down with a fever..
=(((((

OMGGGG...
My printer run out of ink..
And to matter worse, its black ink...
WAaaaaaa..
Shittt....
There goes the idea of tryin to print some at home...
Today its just not my day !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Printer run out of ink..
Graphs not complete..
Mum nagging me for shopping alot..
Face breaking out
Having major headache..
Imsomnia..
Confused...

shitttttttttttt................

Im currently drinking watermelon juice at 1.20 in the morning..
In an air-con room...
Frezzing my ass of..
Been raining heavily for the past hours...
Im kinda freaking out..
I need to get a glass of water ...
But im SCARED .........
Rain + Thunder + Dark = kathryn being a chicken..not a cat *ngeks*
I survive going out today without my straightener ....,
Yes... hehee........
I wana drink mojitos and malibu..
But but..
I got econs assignment to hand in on mon..
Hence, the staying in now..
A little voice inside me keep telling me, "responsibilit over fun"
And another devil voice will be, "Nah, jus screw ur responsibility and go chill for awhile"
But in the end i choose the first...
*beams proudly*

Oh by the way, those songs that im addicted to now in my last post were actually JASON's SONGS !!
Happy ??? :P
Sighs..
guys nowadays are so pape and sensitive.
*giving him the bimbo look*
hahaha.....

Another thing, im kinda in my confuse mode...
yeaaa..... there's this 'thing' that kinda bugging me lately...
Sighss...
Well, i wil explain to u guys later on when i feel like it..
Cant risk it by posting it here...
Im so confusedddddddddddddddddddddddd..................
But yet im longing for it........
Im not making any sense here huh ?
well, ignore it then...

Last but not least, to those annoymous that read my blogs...
Im not trying to be rude but if my posts are whiny...
Then that's my problem..
If my posts are so negative..
I dun think that affect u right..
So just leave it..
It's my blog... I can write or do whatever i feel like it..
Am not trying to be rude...
It's just that when im having a really bad day and i come home to blog..
And i found a comment stating that my posts are whiny..
And that i should appreciate life more..
Don't...

Lack of blogging lately...
Due to the piles of assignments that Monash forced us to do..
And oso my stupidd internet connection...
Hence, the lack of pics....
But loads of pics will be up soon... i promise !! :))
Im glad that my blog is able to load now..
I used to love Fridays... Notice the past tensed ?
Now i hate it...
I dont hate it that much until i curse those that love Fridays...
Don't get me wrong :P

I cant sleep...
I just had "Nestlo Ais" .... which is Milo and Coffee added together...
Being the virgin Nestlo drinker...
No.. scratch that... since i only drank that once and it was in the morning, i didnt know that it will cause me 'insomnia'.....
So here am i... blogging and doing my econs ........
Arghh... speaking of econs...
Econs assignment is due next week mon..
And im so clueless bout it...
Marginal cost, Average total cost, Average variable cost, etc etc....
Gosh... i dont know whats the difference between all these measures....
THIS IS SO BAD!!!!
exams are less than a month away...
And im so not ready..........
Stress is making me feel UGLY ....
STRESS makes me EAT MORE JUNK FOODS... SLEEP LESS... SHOP MORE..
Stress is a very 'expensive'.... =((
It's making me FATTER, UGLIER and 10 TIMES MORE BROKE...
Kathryn needs $$$
On a brighter note, just talked to my bro...
I asked him to get my clothes, bags and accessories in supre and sports girl from aussie..
And he promised me he will get it for me !!!
So aussie clothes.... here i come !! Lolz..

Another random post, Friday is a bang Kathryn day...
Every Friday without failed !! im serious...
I think my forehead is stamp with "Please bully Kathryn"
-_-""""
Not only me.. but Kelly as well.........
Why oh why u guys have to bully us...
=((
Like today...
I have only one lecture every Friday...
8-9am... Suprisingly, i can wake up..
But every friday, i wil be late for my lecture........
*ngeks*
Traffic jam lar :PP
It's been a routine for me to go over to Kelly's every Friday to chill :))
And not forgetting our pan mee.....
Friday is our pan mee day.....
Thanx to JASON (yes, u... the one who reading tis, who called me a bimbo! :P ), who was supposed to pick me up today but was sleeping like a PIG .. so end up i had to find my own transport...
I kena bully..
By Zhi, Sherman..
I was happily drawing/sketching on the back of Zhi's notes :P ..
But they had to bang me..
Saying my rabbit looks like duno what.. my trees look like shit...
-_-
I was just drawing for fun wheyyy...........
:((
And u, Jason, had to bully me as well..
Wat kind of ji mui man ?!?
But Kelly, as usual helped me...
I love u for that ... kekee
And Kelly... *Beep Beep* ???
hehee.. Lolz...

Im getting hungry...im longing for fries....
hehe...
But i vow to sleep more and eat less...
:))

Im currently listening to Twista feat. Pitbull-get down hit the floor, wrexx n effect- rump shaker and ying yang twins-shake...
Thanx to Kelly, i got all t hese nice songs..
I listen to it once or maybe twice ..
Wasnt really aware of it till now !!

*dancing around in my room*
hehee...

Kelly Tey Hui Fang And Aaron Tey Turn 19 !!!

Kelly Tey and Aaron Tey officially turn19 today !!
Both have the same surname, same bithday and both are insanely crazy...
but i still love them ;P
Happy birthday Kelly and Aaron........
Aaron was and is my bestie back in high school.....
He was in the same class as me in form1 until form 3..
I remember he used to carry home my Geography textbook... keke...
And we used to tease each other.......
But back then, his temper was unpredictable..
He had mood swings worst than me........
-_-
Im glad that you are in Monash with me now !!!
And has most of the classes with me !!! kekee..
Both of us asking for assignments ... and editing it to be ours .. lolz..
His looks can be deceiving !!
He study like mad...
Frigging hardworking !!
And now his name is Apron ........ =pp

I knew Kelly Tey back in ICPU..
But wasnt that close to her ....
Suprisingly, when i met her in Monash...
I can really talk to her....
She's one sweetie...
Been there for me when i need her........
Stand my bimbo-ness, whine and my stupidness... hehe
Together with Elaine and Jason, we form a bimbo group... hahaha....
And oso our Indon slang wheyy....
kekeke.........
She's one good fren, girlfren, babe, and smart.........
But she's changing uni next sem..
And i hate you for it , Kel !!
U know i do !! :PP
And now Kelly is known as Jelly, Telly, Belly ... hehee...
*don't look at me! It wasnt me that got it started* Lolz..

Hope both of you guys enoy your 19 birthday !!!
May all your life fills with happiness...
* big squishy hugs*
Love you guys.. muaxxx..........

QuickSilver Revolution 2006

Went to the quicksilver revolution thing on saturday, 22 april..........
I woke up early because my mum woke me up.....
She was making lots of noise outside my room...
Hence,i had to wake up :((
Well, to cut things short.......
I was supposed to meet Kelly, Vonne and Justin , Vonne's bf in Pyramid at 3 plus...
Technically, i was the 'papi' wan :p
So i reached there at bout 5 plus... Lolz..
Me and my timing.. hahaa.....
Influenced by Wen :P
We went in to Lagoon after i had changed into shorts..
I dont feel comfortable walking in pyramid with shorts and slippers...
It was dam packed as soon as we enter...
Saw some girls wearing bra as their bikini -_-""
It was a sight i do not want to see again.......
Vonne was hungry after we check out the place that the event was held........
Naturally we did cam-whore...
Of cos.... an event wont be an event without cam-whoring :p
We found this place where it's in upstairs and had air-con...
Cooling, quiet, nice lighting .........
It's a good place to be with your bf .. wtf ;)
We sat there for hours cos we had to wait for someone that was frigging late.......
Ji mui kononnya........ :P
Had a great time there ... and Click Five rocks ?!?? *sarcastically*
Lolz.. no offense to click firve fans aite ??
Met up with Joanne, Desmond, Brendan and Brian.......
Joanne and Brian were wearing shoes -_"
It was going on alright until i was pushed inside the water.........
All i know and saw before i fell inside the water was Chris grabbed Kelly, Kelly grab Jason and Guess wat........
Yess,, Jason grab me as well !! .......
-_"
It was actually quite funny if u observed it..
Because we were like the pyramid...
one tumble and everyone tumble...........
And worst of all, i scraped my knees and sand went into my eyes...
Stupid me, i was wearing contacts at that time.. :((
It ended at bout 10 plus...
And we decided to go for a drink in one of the mamak in Subang...
If im not mistaken is Tanjung Mamak Bistro ???
Me and Kelly were the only one that changed our clothes..
Others were wet, in their shorts and slippers ..........
Everyone that was there are all from Subang high schools and live in Subang..
Except for me.........
-_-""
But i love my high school ... kekeke..
Well, if im n ot in Dj, then i wouldnt have mates that guys drool at huh ..
Yes, that's u, Sherve, Wen, Elaine !!! ;)))
Love u guysss......... keke
I had one bite of Desmond's 'roti tisu' and they had to make a big fuss out of it...
"Kathryn... u eat wan arr"
" Woww.... i must record wheyy... and put it as Hari Ini Dalam Sejarah"
-_-""
It all going so well till Desmond and Jason started telling ghost stories.......
And Jason had to make me trembling with fear by asking me to be careful when i taking a bath later back home..
I was curious so i asked him what's the reason for the precaution...
And i shouldnt had asked him...

" Well, later when u shower that time, suddenly got one hand scrub ur back!"
-_-""
" dont worry la, jus tell the hand to srcub harder and scrub it more to the left or right. But be careful, dun turn around u know... When the hand finish scrubbing your back, just said thank you and turn on the water. REMEMBER DUN TURN AROUND"
OMFG mannn....
He told me at 12 plus in the morning !!
I really hate him.......
Arghhh..........
Neway, pictures can be view from Vonne's blog!!! ;))
As i cant load any pictures in my blog...
i Dont know what happen..
So check out the pics from her blog and i shall post the pics soon...
Patient... ;))

I hate the way i am feeling now...
I hate being emo..
I hate the way i feel like crying..
I hate the tears that are falling...

It's hard to please everyone....

What the fuck is going on..

I hate being kept in the dark.....

I fucking hate that you toyed with me...
The mixed signals u send to me....

I hate myself for being so emo..
I hate the fake sympathy that was given..

I hate backstabbers who are trying to act pleasantly in front of me..
Spare me the details ...
And dont try to act in front of me.....

Time will heal ??
Well, i fucking don't know......

All i know is that things don't turn out the way you want it to be..
The more you want th e 'thing', the more it will turn the opposite way....
You never get it..
Life's unfair...
Life's a bitch..
Life's hard...

Deal with it or not......

I choose the latter...

Spend My Life With you...

Im home alone..
My parents got some function going on...
Im currently waiting for my friends to pick me up for dinner..
OMG... im so addicted to Eric benet& Tamia-spend my life with you........
Download it and listen to it with the lyrics in you hand...
U will melt when you listen to it... Trust me...
Cos im so addicted to it !!!
The lyric is so meaningful.....
I search for the lyrics as soon as i hear it...

Eric Benet & Tamia- Spend my life with you..

I never knew such a day could come
And i never knew such a love could be inside of one
And i never knew what my life was for
But now that you're here i know for sure

I never knew til' i looked in your eyes oh baby
I was incomplete til' the day you walked into my life
And i never knew that my heart could feel so precious and pure
One love so real real

Can i just see you every morning when
I look in your eyes
Can i just feel your heart beating beside me every night
Can we just feel this way together til' the end of all time
Can i just spend my life with you

Now baby the days and the weeks and the years will roll by
But nothing will change the love inside of you and i

And baby i'll never find any words that could explain
Just how much my heary my life my soul you've changed

Can you run to these open arms when no one else understands
Can we tell God and the whole world i'm your woman and you're my man
Can you just feel how much i love you with one touch of my hand
Can i just spend my life with you

No touch has ever felt so wonderful
Not a deeper love i've ever known never let you go

I swear this love is true now and forever to you

Anymore sentimental songs that i can download ??
I love sentimental songs..
OR any songs that have meaningful lyrics....

I need Cash .... ! -)

Finally, i can blog !!! =D
I duno waht gotten into me..
Suddenly im spending like hell..
I just checked my wallet and i realized that all i had was rm50 ...
=/
Lack of sleep for the past few days...
I thought i can have a nice sleep in on saturday after a late day on friday
but...
my mum woke me up early in the morning..
When i said early, i meant early..
As early as 9 am...
To go jogging with her! -_-"
Since i woke up early and i cant sleep back, i DEMANDED my mum to bring me go klcc...
And i never ever been to PC Fair before, so i should check it out and find out what the fuss is all about..
The place is freaking pack !!
Body to body...
Imagine guys with BO...
OMFG !!!!! Freaking cant stand it mannn........
And the girls that were working there, HOT !!
I thought if buying some stuff there but i cant even get close to the booth..
So forget about it,....
I went shopping instead =D
Went to mambo.. Bought floppies there .. i love floppies .. hehe
Ooohh.... and i bought a pair of gold heels from Aldo...
I like.. i like... my gorgeous pair of heels... hehee
And also this pair of gorgeous jeans from Calvin Klein jeans...
Courtesy of mummy..
*ngeks*

Night, went to have dinner with my cousins at one of the Thai Restaurant in centerpoint...
yummy.. i love thai food...
Pictures will be post soon... when i upload it...

Today, i went swimming .... yeapss...
I love swimming....Tho i cant swim, i can play water ma.. :P
The best part about today, today is not a sunny day !!!
meaning i wont get tan !~!! =))

Ooohhh... and i got my hair cut today...
it looks funny :/
I always dont get what i want when i get my hair cut...
Sighss..........

Long long day...

I wanted to blog last night.. but i was so freaking tired that i dont have the energy to..
Plus i din even shower before hitting the bed.. i jus plop on my bed when i reached home... shhhh.... hehee
I woke up at 6 plus almost 7 yesterday.. morning u know..
Got lecture at 8am .... arghhhh.. blergh !!!
And its only for one hour... woke up so freakng early for one hour lecture.. -_"
But for the first time, i did try to listen to what the lecturer said...
but failed to understand what she's trying to say.. well, i did try =)
After lecture, went for breakfast with Zhi, wilson, aaron and zhong loon....
Kena bully like hell -_-
The guys were helping each other to tease me...
not gentlemen at all :P

Anyway, Jason picked me up at erm, 10 i think.. if im not mistaken.......
One thing good bout him?
Super punctual..
if he said he wil be there at 20mins, he will..
Not a min early or late...

We went to 1u to catch a movie and shopping ........
weee... i love love shopping......... ;)
Guess what movie we watched.......
Water Spirit....... -_-
Frigging gross man... and erm kinda scary for me le..
well, im a scaredy cat... so sue me :p
I cant sleep for at least a month after watching ju-on le..
I kept imagine the small lil boy hiding in the corner of my room..
arghh... im even thinking bout it now...

Ooohh... and i bought two tops from Zara.... and a bag from XOXO........
Heheee.... i love going shopping..
Saw millions of things i wana buy but im kinda broke.....
that Jason fella spent money like hell..
He even went into ralph lauren to get polo tees.......
And reserve a guess jeans...
Frigging hell.......
Not forgetting two tops he bought from Zara..
But it was fun..
That guy is dam picky......
His words when i asked him,
" Y must u try tops? i thought usually only try bottoms right ?"
" Kenot, i very picky wan.. i dont like tops thats dam long.. tat's longer than (duno wat he said dy).. and kenot be too loose or too tight"
-_-"
He even tried it on few times for me to see and ask which one is nicer.....
Fortunately for him , i was not in my cranky mood... :P
But im a nice person... right kelly ?? Lolz............

Walked around.......... and had lunch in Jack's place.....
Had tuna sandwich.. yummm.. i love the Tuna sandwich.........
kelly came at about 4 plus with Vonne and Sabrina and her bf, Way....
Sabrina and Way are frenly ....... =D
They made me feel welcome........ hehee.. thanx guys =))

We watched another show... Lucky Number 7........
It was a hell good movie..
It mades your brain thinks what's gona happen next.......
And full of suprises...........
I love it..
Plus Josh Harnett in a towel ??
Extra yummy ........ hahahaa .............
Imagine snogging josh harnett.........
Wowww... die and gone to heaven =))

Was so frigging tired after the movie ends.....
A big thannk you to kelly for fetching me home.. *hugss* -)

I thought i can rest after i reached home but to my suprise...
My cousins wanted to go out for drinks.......
In Alexis, bangsar..........
I have to drag my aching feet, body and mind to go bangsar.....
Was there til about 2plus ...
Reached home at 3plus..........
Imagine the tired-ness i was having....
I been out since early in the morning till the wee hours whey....
Plus i took this stupid day to wear contacts...........
I got no energy to even shower mann...
hehe..
yesss... i knw.. smelly and dirty..
but wth...im frigging tired..
and well, my mum's gona change my bedsheet anyway.. lolz...

Trusting you.......

After all these years, i thought trusting someone is just by giving your trust to that person...
By believing in that person...
By having faith in that person...
But oh boy.. im so wrong.............
Im not sure by trusting that person is right or wong right now..
I mean, i given all my trust to that person and this happen ??
And i dont know who should i trust now......
Three parties involved ...
Three are my friends........
I cant follow my heart anymore..
Because sometimes following your instinct doesnt turns out the way you want it.......
I feel so lost right now.
I wana throw my tantrum on someone.........
Want to yell at someone...
Want to cry so i would feel better....

But.......
I cant..
I really dont know why.....
I just cant.
I feel like crying but i cant.
there are no tears coming out.......
I want to yell at someone but the furthest i can go is just by raising my voice....
I cant sum up all my energy to throw tantrum.........

I dont know why.....

Deep down inside i feel so hurt...
Seriously... i do.....
I mean how could they...............
Cant they give me some pride and respect me ?
AT least let me know that i did the right thing by trusting you guys....
Sighs.....

I want to forgive and forget.
But i .........
I dont even know the whole dam story for christ sake........
Wtf .........

Betrayal.......

I felt that i had been betrayed ...
I do...
After a talk with one of my friend... (names should be annoymous), i realized that im so frigging dumb that i cant see past it...
She told me something about what my another supposed to be my friend did...
My first reaction when i heard it was, "WAT THE F*** IS SHE DOING?"
Im frigging piss at her .........
I thought she was my friend and still is my friend..
And i know me and her are not really good friends or anything but i help her whenever she needed me too..
Heck, she even f***ing lie to me when i was helping her at that time........
And i wanst that mad when i found out about it..
At that time, i was thinking that she had a good reason for not telling me the whole story...
But.....
She did that to me ??
And all these times when i asked her for help, did she helped me or the otehr way round?
Trying to make things worse??
What the F*** is wrong with her ?
Does she really enjoys seeing me sad? emo ??
OR she doesnt want me to be happer cos she's not happy ??
Wat the fuck is that mannn.........
I treated her as my real friends..
Someone whom i care deeply for...
Someone that i will spend every single living minute helping her..
Someone i believe has a good heart eventho there were rumours about her..

It's seriously dam f*** up man.......
I feel so used.......
And another thought occured to me...
Why i waste all my time treating someone so nice, someone i thought was my friend end up treating me this way?
Is it so dam f**** hard to just for once see me happy ??
Another random thought came into my mind,
wat if all along when i told her my probs, she's cooking up something...
If she's innocent, why wont she tell me ??
I mean, GOD, i told her what i did if it involves her...

Oh my gosh..........
I really dont want to know what happen...
I really dont want to know what she up to...

Im fucking hurt...
Fucking piss.........

How could she ??

Excuse the language .......... im not myself now........

I dont know what happen to my previous post..
The pic appear on the top of the page, and twice at the bottom
sighs... And some of the pics i post never appear..
so im gona post it again..
Hopefully, it will be alrite ?? =((((

The Tiffany ring .... it was kinda big for other fingers... The only two fingers that i can wear it on is the 1st and the 2nd........ well, who cares... its Tiffany baby ... hehe =D

me.. me .. me... showing the ring.. overlook the eye bags.. and poor skin complexion... well, i had class from mornin til night le.... plus din get much sleep the night before class... sighss...

And... OMG.... I just remember something..... I was asking him, "what happen if i drop ur ring?" We were standing at the highest building at that time... And you know what he said, "don't lar... I kenot find that ring in Tiffany already.." -_-"""""""""

Im Frigging Tired .......!!

My blog has gone AWOL on me..
Hence, i cant blog for the whole last weeks...
Anyway, i was busy with my assignments and stuff...
After stressing for so long, finally handed in assignment 1...
And assignment 2 due date is coming up...
Waaaaaaaaaa..............
To make matters worse, i just got back my assignment 1 of business and economic statistics...
Sighs.. i only got 15 out of erm either 20 or 30...
And we have to divide the marks we have by 2...
Waaaaaaaaaa........
I spend the whole night doing it but this is what i got..
Sighss..
I hate it...
And.... in econs tutorial today, my tutor told us that our econs lecture wana minus our marks if we did not double space our works... WAT ????
Is he that particular..??
OMG !!!.... Frigging hell mann........
Stupid cocked- eye fella...
Kel, u would know who am i talking about huh ?? =P
I got class today at 9am until 8pm..
Yesssssssssss.................. imagine waking up at 7 to get ready of course =P
and stay in uni till 8pm...
Never in my life stays till so late..
This is the first time whey..
And i realized the view from the sunway building is nice..
The lightings.... and Sunway lagoon from the highest floor..
Freaking nice..
Too bad i din take a picture of it..
=D
And me, kelly, elaine and jason suposed to go for the managing lecture..
But in the end we were outside the stairs... or balcony? watching the night view..
Heck, we even watch the sunset wheyy...
haha...
The things we do when we are bored in uni:
1). Sitting outside the ermm i duno wats isit called... is where the stairs are located..but still, there have benches... telling ghost stories..And yes, im frigging scared right now =/
2). Talking emo stuff... =D
3). Singing ...
4). Watching the night view from the highest floor...

hahaa.... yess.. we are crazy..
i reached home at bout 8.30... and have some soup and oatmeal tingy that old people eat... Well, wat to do.. Food poisoning... been throwing up since last night..
sighss...
Ooo.. before i shower i took a picture of this TIFFANY&CO ring... that belongs to Jason... i forgot to give him back.. Real Tifffany ring wheyyy.. dont play play.. hehee....... ;)

The ring on my thumb .... excuse the timetable in the background ;P

Emo ?me...?

I just realized that all my posts are really emo..
And i dont even realise it until my friends siad so..
Hmm...im alrite...
=D
Maybe its the way i blog... that indirectly shows that im emo??
nah.... you should see me in uni...
A true bimbo.. hehee...
A good one i hope?
hehe...
I jus hand in my business and economics stats assignments..
I didnt know the assignments have a maximum of 1000 words until today when i was in uni and when i was about to hand it..
This is what happens when i read people's blogs in tutorial.. hehehe
The solution?
Take a liquid and correct it... and wrote 1000 words instead of my original 1233 words..
Smart huh??
hehee........
I slept at 4plus 5 yesterday... in the morning..
Just cause of the assignment.....
And stupid aaron asked me to come early this morning to uni...
His words, " i wil be in com lab at about 8plus like that"
And i came at 9 on purpose but when i call him..

"Im stil at home lar... now coming out...Wait arr..."

So i sit in the foyer until 10... waiting for Elaine, Kelly and Samantha for their lecture to end..
Celaka Aaron Tey.......
I can have my beauty sleep !!
But he made me cum early.........
U owe me man !!
:P

Ohya... wen dont want to take picture with me.. :P
I tak suka u Wen.......
How come i dun get to flood ur gallery with my pics..., and wif u.........
*merajuk*
hehe..

And sherve i wana flood ur gallery wif my pics as well..
Lolz..

My friends that owns a camera phone will have my pic in their gallery..
At least one of my picture !!!
Aaron's phone have my pic!!
Wai hou's phone has it as well..
And also Adrian...
Next person on the list ???
Kelly..... ur phone dont have yet...
im gona take it when i c u in uni next mon !!!
wheee...
hehee...........

Oh sherve.. i wil be super emo if u leave without telling me -_-
I shall let u try my 'cooking skills' before u leave me !! =D
i promise it wil b poison free..

Guys and their ego !!

Im not being sexiest with the title..
Read a post in Vonne's blog about the story betwwen a guy and his girlfriend..
It's seriously dam touching and sad.........
Read it and you will know why..
Reading it makes me comes up with few unanswered questions..

Why do guys always insist on doing stuff that he knows will hurt their other person feelings(or maybe he really don't?)?
Is saving your face really that important ??
What's up with hurting the girl another time when you know you had hurt her once??

These questions are not from my past experience or im being bitter aite?
hehe...
im just curious.....

Not all guys are erm being not so nice..
But some of it are and im just curious to know why they are being like that..........

Tiesto....

Yea.. i know... im so outdated... Tiesto pit party was last sat and im only blogging about it one week later?? well, sorry... been really busy with.... stuffs....
Just hand in my 1500 management essay...
Im glad it's over...
Anyway.... i reach the Limousine Shuttle Bay around 10 plus ...
a big thanx to Zhong Loon for fetching me there and back !!! =D
It was pretty crowded with girls with hot body...
Guys that erm are half-naked...
We reached just in time for Tiesto... =)
It started with some indian dance and lion dance tingy...
Tho so unfamiliar songs... but it was good !!!
Dance til my feet hurts....
Met up with one of my old friends...su lin..
I still remember she's the first girl that made friend with me when i were in form1...
=D
And the funniest thing is she's my ex bf ex gf...
hehee...
She's still looking so dam gorgeous..
Met up with Wei ping...
my primary school mate !!
=D
Tho we kinda drifted apart but i know she wil help me in whatever way that she can...
Luv her lotss........

The ticket..........

The lights effect .. cool huh ....

i love the laser lights effect ..... i like.... plus its taken from my cam phone... vga camera u know wen !!!! heheheee

The man himself... Tiesto...

Another light effect pictures... hmm.. im so addicted to all these light effects thingy =D

They gave free lighter..... so there's my lighter, wrist band and the map ... =D
OVerall it was ok... nothing biggie... the music was alrite... good company makes everything nice huh kelly ??? =D

Quotes...

“Never hastily conclude that you’ve lost the war just because the battle seems to have taken a turn for the worse. Sometimes you may need to back off for awhile, but that no way means the game is over. A little strategic withdrawal can work wonders. Not only does the river of life take new twists and turns every day, allowing random factors to turn in your favor, but it also gives the one you want a chance to let down their guard. It also gives you time to reassess your strategy and to focus on some self-improvement while preparing for your next encounter. The only real mistake you can make is to conclude your setback is permanent.”

" The person that makes you cry the most is not worth it. No man is worth your tears. If he really loves you, he would not make you cry.Tears of joyness maybe.But not tears of sorrows."

" If loving a person is so hard, let it go. It's better to let go then to make both party suffer."

"It's better to fall in love and let go than not to be loved at all"

Trouble...

This is bad...
Im waking up early to do my assignments, which im still clueless about..
Im blogging while thinking a way to settle my assignments..
This is so so so bad..
Im so DEAD...
I don't know how to create demand curve using excel or words...
Hence, i got so frustrated that i sotp doing econs... hehehe
I want to start on my management but yet erm, i don't know how.. =/
Im so tired from yesterday Toyota Rev Party in Bar Savanh..
I know.. i know..
i shouldnt have went when there are assignments waiting for me..
But free entrance .... =D
This sat Tiesto ...
I must finish off my assignments before going !!!!!!!!!!!

Datelines !!!

Do not do your assignments 1 week before due date !!

I keep telling myself that but it had not absorb by my brain yet until this week..
IM SO FREAKING OUT !!!
my Managing People and organisations assignment due date.Mac 25th -_-"
Introductory Microeconomics assignment due date: 3 April (at least this is not so bad)
Business & Econ stats: 30th Mac...
Accounting assignments: 7 April...

OMGGG !!!!
I have to write a 1500 words essay for managing and organisations... -_-""
* pale at the number of words*
And guess what?
yes.... i have not start writing yet..
The funny part was i did the assignments that the due date is on April and i manage to finish part of the assignments that wasnt due next week !!
Shit...
Im always like this..
Doing the right thing but at the wrong time .........
I need to work harder !!!
Im freaking out..
But im still blogging when i can do my assignments..
I shall start tmw =p
Since i had a long day...
I had class from 11am all the way to 5.30 !!!
I deserve a tiny day off .. hehehe
Oh god... stress...stress...
Pimples are popping out....

All About Love

Yea.. i know valentine's day is over..
But love is everywhere right..
I read Adrienna's blog about love...
And it's so true...
I so agree with it..
And i bet u guys will as well..

Love just is..
The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
There are no questions to why you love someone.
Love just is...
Love is strong yet delicate,It can be broken.
To truly love is to understand this,
To be in love is to respect this.
Love feels no burden,thinks nothing of trouble,attempts what is above its strength,pleads no excuse of impossibility...
It is therefore able to undertake all things,and it completes many things,and warrants them to take effect
Where he who does not love would faint and lie down.
Love is watchful and sleeping,slumbereth notthough weary,
It is not tired;though pressed,
It is not straitened;though alarmed, It is not confounded.
Love comes softly..
Never rush to give your whole heart to someone..you would only end up broken hearted.
I look back and ponder upon the silly things I succumb myself into and wonder why I could have been so foolish?
Life is just unfair...
the moment you think that the sun in your life is beginning to shine again,a new wave of despair overwhelms you.
Hurt and disappointed again.
Then comes the question of whether we should hate or forgive?to blame or to acknowledge?I
t may take awhile to heal but it definitely will..
We should choose to forgive,moreover we only have ourselves to blame for the consequences we face because of the choices we made.
I truly believe that what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger
Everything has beauty but not everyone sees it.
Im sure everything happens for a reason..
Afterall,it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all...

aww....sappy huh ?
*sobs*

Movie Marathon...

Im supposed to be doing my assignments...
Which are piling up now...
but i don't have the mood to do it.. =/
I been doing a movie marathon...
I been watching movie since 4pm...
I started with The Notebook..
I cried .....
If only life will be like that.. Like in The Notebook...
Then, i watched A Walk To Remember...
I don't know why but i cried everytime i watched this...
And i watched it for like 5 times?6 counting today..
After that, i watched Raise Your Voice...
I cried again...
A super touching show...
To those who had not watch it...
Its a good movie...
Unless you hate Hilary Duff ;p
I pause to get my dinner...
I continue with Romeo and Juliet...
I did get sappy at the end of the movie..
But i did not cried..
Im suprised...

It's been a "tearful" day for me...

Dreams....

I want to escape from this world...
I want to be in my dreamland...
Where everything seems nice..
Where everything is under control by ME ...
Where there are no stress, tension, angerness...
Once, i dreamt that im in somewhere in between earth and somewhere nice =D
The grass is green.. No brown grass or whatsoever..
The air is so fresh...
No air pollution...
No noise pollution..
Imagine .....
Flowers blooming everywhere...
Varieties of flowers ...
All smells so divine...
Your next door neighbours are extremely friendly..
They bring in your mails and share the food they cook with you..
You puppy barking cheerfully... =D
You wake up everyday to the birds chirping...
Your special someone besides you...Still happily in love after years of marriage.. =D
Your only worries are about eating the balance and healthy meals...
You got all the love in the world that you want..
You are satisfied with they way your life is going..
No regrets..
Or no i-wish-my-life-could-be-better...
*sighs*
Dont you wish you have that kind of lifestyle??
I don't know about you..
But i wish to have it..

Dreams are what you dreamt about whenver you fall into sleep..
Once you woke up, you know you have to face the world ...
Face the problems and not run away..
Dreams are sweet when you are in it...
But it will not be as sweet as you think when you see the world...

Freedom...

Ttrust me..
I enjoy it...
I enjoy being single..
So dun worry about me...
Im alrite dei
Pang... u know im alwis cheerful..
minus the occasional mood swings larr..hheheheh
Jason Lee.... u know im fast to recover if u do something nice for me.. tee heee ... =D
Wen... one word : Freedom...
She nv worry about me cos she knows i wil be alrite in no time ..
Rite ppl ???

Dance The Night Away...

I WANT TO GO DJ TIESTO...
But most of my friends are not going...
I asked most them yesterday over a cup of milo kosong ais =P

" No money lar." jason's words..
" So far.. i lazy lar" Aaron Lee's words...
" I at home oso can listen to DJ Tiesto lar.I got the CDs" -_-"" Aaron Tey's words..
" See first lar.. If i feel like going that day then i go lor" (annoymous)
" Exams coming lar..Need to study" Wen's words..

Lots more comment but im far too lazy to post it..
Most of my friends that in the first place are going and that promised me that they will pick me up are cancelling on me! I Hate You !! ( if you are reading this, then too bad.hehehe)
I want to dance the night away..
I want to wear my hooker heels...
I want to dress up..
I want to party...

waaaaaaaaaaaa.............. i want to go!
I want to go!!
=/
Melissa..............if you are reading this... go lar......... it will be dam fun......... =D

Sympathy?

Im not emo !!
Im alright...
Seriously ... =D
Never been happier in my life..
Well, except the thrill i get when i found something i really like and it's in my budget.. hehee *big grin*
keep the sympathy aside..
Im not emo ...
Hmm... it's bad that eventhough i emo for a few days and constantly..
Everyone starting thinking me as an emo queen or drama queen =/
* sighs*
Must change my attitude ...
So spare me the sympathy ...
Im alrite..
Hand me the sympathy when i really need it..
Which is when i come to talk to you about it...
=)
Im happy...
Counting down to DJ Tiesto Pit Party next sat...
*jumps around*
Im definitely going but....
Im finding for people that are going that can pick me up as well..
Anyone want to volunteer to go and pick me up ??? hehehehe =D

Because I'm A Girl

i love being a girl...
Because being a girl mean that hse can get out of certain things =D
I can emo and all i had to say time of the month larr...
hehehee
Guys kenot say time of the month.
Hence, they kenot be emo!! hehehehe
I can choose to keep my hair long or cut it short...
Guys have only one hairstyle, which is short
Ok..so some guys do keep their hair long but majority guys only had one style..hehehee
I can buy more tops and bottoms but it still cost less than guys clothes... =D
I like.. i like...
I can go for manicure or nail art whenever i feel like it..
Guys are not able to do so.. hehee
So what girls have pms but we can get out of a lot of things.. =)
I can go to spa, i like i like...
Im going spa tmw since i have no class tmw !! =] weeeeeeeee........
I can say im on diet...
But guys cant say that cause it wil be not 'macho' enough for them..
Muahahahaa....
I like being a girl... i like i like =D

p/s: pang, if you are reading this and u r jeslous u r not a girl.. then too bad !!heheh ...try to top my reasons !! =p

Of Black Hair and Brown Hair...

I dyed my hair brown last year and had it for at least half a year...
It's getting boring...
And my hair had been the same since i dyed my hair brown..
Long,straight(if i dont have bad hair day that day.hehee) and brown....
The other time i was in midvalley and as i was rushing time i was walking pretty fast..
Faster than my usual pace... talking on the phone cos my fren was LATE..
Anyway, i talk to Jason Lee on the same night and he said...
"today you went mv right ?"
" How you know arr? you saw me??"
" I saw you mah...you were walking dam fast but i know it's you cos i can recognize your hair.. the way your hair its.."
" Really?? my hair so weird isit?that's right you recognise it?"
" Nolar... cos your hair is all along like that.. and i see you so many times already.I can recognise it"

This shows that my hair color, style etc etc are getting bored...
I need new look...

Sherve just dyed her hair blue black.. Her hair is dam shiny now..
I like i like...
My mum ask me to dyed it black...
Cause she said my hair is too expensive for her to maintain -_-"
Must retouch everytime it grows...
She said dam spoilt my hair cause i keep re-touch my hair color...
I wan a need look...
I want to cut my hair short...
Because im bored with my long hair..
But i dont have the guts to do it... =/
I dont know whether i look nice in black hair anot...
I talked to Mel today in my class...
And ask her opinion...
She said i shouldnt cut my hair short...

Any suggestions??
hmm..maybe i suprise everyone with a really short hair do one day? hehehehe

Of Lies and truths...

Which do you prefer to hear ?
Lies or truths...
I know i prefer to hear the truths...

Something not related to the topic..
But Aaron said something today that made me anaylse his words...hehe
He asked me today in Managing People and Organisations lecture,
" Wei San, u think u last time in form3,4 or 5 tat time slimmer or now ar?"
" why arr ?? isit i now fat isit ??"
" You answer me 1st lar..."
" I dono worr... same gua... "
" I know last time during i.u night that time... the i.u night where i was the one who had organized it that time... U and wen body dam nice lor..." *making that shape thing with his hand*
"So now you say i fat dy larr.... " -_-
" I never say u fat lar k.. jus asking u that question only mah"
" but if you asked me that kind of questions, it means u indirectly say i fat rite?You dam mean larrr"
" I know last time during i.u nite that time, Ju Nn said she dam jealous of wen's and ur body lor."

Wen!!!!!!!!! he indirectly said we fat !!! -_-"
Celaka !! after all the stuff i photostat for him !! hehee

Back to the topic... I prefer to know the truths than lies...
I mean wats the use of all the lies..
People tend to lie so that you can embarrased yourself..
But some lie becuase they want to protect you in a way..
But yet i prefer to know the truths..
For e.g.
If your bf is cheating behind your back and one of your gf founds out
would you rather she tell you the truth ??
I prefer to know the truth...
I do...

Think about it... truth or lies?

Confessions...

I have a few things i wana confess..
- Im not that flirty as you think i am.. From the outer appearance, you might think im such a bitch... flirting with other guys when i have him but now im not sure whether r we still together anot..i don't want people to think that im loyal.. i don't know why i think that.. Maybe because of past experience...
- I cares for everything very deeply... every single thing around me are my possesions including my friends..
- Im super super sensitive and emotional.. Im easily cry and i get upset easily ! Bad habbit.. Im not like this last time.. i don't know what changes me into like that...
- Im a giver than a taker...
- I appreaciate everything that everyone did for me.
- Im confused on believing my trust or instinct...
- I hate feeling emo at times..
- I had a hard time controlling my emotions at times..
- Im not independent..im dependent, which is why i get so wrap up whenever a probs occur..
- Im not perfectionist but i try to be..
- I tried to make everything alright but i don't think i did a good job..
- I don't understand why some things happen..Some said everything happens for a reason..So whats the reason for 'this' thing to happen?i really wana know..
- I love perfect things... things to go smoothly..
- I have weird mood swings... i do..sorri if i seem happy 1 sec and sad 1 sec later..
- I listen to sad songs all the time.. especially when im feeling down like now..
- I just wish everything will be alrite again...

Currently listening to: Wang Lee Hom, Kiss Goodbye...

Drama Queen...

Lately, i realized that im such a drama queen...
Acting like a Miss-the-world-is-all-about-me..
*sighs*
Note to self: must not be such a drama queen..!!
I wish that i can make a decision..
I wish that i can talk things through...

Im experiencing mix emotions right now..
There are times that i feel hyper in the morning and i feel dam moody at night..
Assignments are increasing..
But yet i have not find the mood to do it yet..
OMG !!
STRESS ~ !!!

Emo + Moody + Depressed + Stress + Tired + Eating like mad + Undecided = my feelings right now..

I know i shouldnt be like this..
But somehow i cant control it..
I know i must control myself..
Telling myself that im a big girl now..
Not some young girl...
I must be more mature..
Everyhting happens for a reason huh?
Maybe God make "this" happens because he have something else plan for me...
OR maybe not..

Tiesto Asia Tour 2006

Dj Tiesto is coming to Malaysia for the first time at the Renault F1 Pit Party...
*squeal with joy*
Im definitely going...
Gona buy the ticket tomorrow.. =)
But im not sure whether my friends would want to go anot... =(
Come on people..
DJ Tiesto !!!!
A must go party !!!
Imagine all the hot guys(i hope not the jeng wan?) and chun chiqs ...
The party is going ot be on mac 18 at the KLIA Limousine Shuttle Bay..
Seeing at how my life is turning out, i need to chill and relax myself..
So this is how im going to relax myself..
By going to Pit Party... =D
weeeee....
Im happy..
I got few of my guy friends that are definitely going... =)
*thanx to me that bug them like everyday and every sec.. hehehe *
So im definitely in..
Unless suddenly my parents change their mind and ground me =(
But nothing can stop me from going !!!
WEeEEEE... hehehe =D

Oh btw, Leroy... if u r reading this... im so so sorri that u wont b able to go for the pit party.. hehehe
Im such a meanie at times.. =P

*note to self: must study and finish assignments before going out and also DIET!!!*

my baby...

I got back my nokia phone...
Finally !!
After sending it to the shop for about a week to repair
i miss my baby so much..
And now it's back.. hehehee
Told you i cant leave without my phones...
If one day people take away my phone, i will deliberately kill them !!! =p
Im still feeling emo...
Still the same old issues..
Have a slight fever...
Skip lecture for a day..
but think of the bright side..
I got my baby, which means the world to me...
Which is my phone...
I hate being in a relationships !!!!!

Memories...

I read Sherve about being with that person because of memories..
And it makes me wonder whether that's what am i doing...
Im not sure whether i said im in love with him because of the memories we had together
or because im truly in love with him..
3 years plus of relationship..
If you include the break ups we had in between..
Wen Ni told me over and over again that he's useless...
She said me and him had not had a true break up before..
As in really break up... no longer talking to each other on the phone...
Going out yum cha...
As in a BREAK...
Which is why i think it's harder for me to decide...
It's not new anymore of us fighting...
Even when i told Rae the other day that me and him fought..
She said, "it's not new news anymore lerr"
And i realized that she's right..
Why oh why did we always had such nonsense fight..
Fights that i don't even know the reason or causes of it..
Relationships are all about give and take..
But ..........
I try to ignore the negative side of the memories
I only remember the good times..
No matter how hurt or emotionally unstable i may seem right now
Im still trying to be positive...
Positive that everything will be alright..
And this goes back to the question on whether im with him because im in love with him
OR because of memories...

Opinions people ??
Well, people that knows me...
Because obviously strangers would not know the whole story huh?

Im sad right now..
The only thing that makes me feel better is food..
been eating like mad..
Eventhough im not hungry..
Im eating so that i can feel better..

I forget to upload some of the pics from Joanne's dinner...

Pang doing his Leroy's look...

ERm... Us doing our kawaii pose...

Another of our kawaii pose... too much alcohol =p

Me and Zhi .... Arvind said he looks like he wana kill people ..hehe

Kisses.... ehehee

Happy Birthday Joanne !!!

Happy Bday !!!
Joanne turns 19 yesterday !! hugsss...
Went to Soul-ed out for dinner yesterday...
We went crazy with our cameras...
I din know guys love taking pics as well =)
LAzy to write..
So enjoy the pics =)

me, Nette and Joanne... =)

us again... =)

Me and pang....

Jason, me and Pang =)

Shawn doing his funny pose....

adrian with his "kawaii" pose =)

The picture said it all.. =)

The guys.... Having their guys talk ;p

Me and Debbie ....

Pucker up !!! =D

Picture from heaven... Zhi's words... It looks like that because of the mist...

Joanne's beautiful cake ... =)

Me and Shawn ... =)

Shawn made me pose like this !!! =p

Caught in the camera... candid...

Cake feeding... tee hee...

Candid picture.... Was tryin to feed the birthday gal cake =D

Shawn !!! Licking strawbery...

Perfect and cute couple !!! =)

Desmond, me and Shawn ....

Posing... pang and me

Me and brandon...

Nette, me, joanne and jason....

nette, Arvind , me

Arvind doing his funny pose .. or to be more exact.. Ji-nette's pose ;p

Freaking stupid pose ....

Shopping !!!!

I went to Guess sales today !!!!
Woo hoo..
Bought 2 bags and a wallet/purse !!!!
Went into Lasenza and bought ermm lingerie =)
hehehe....
Im happy..
I fight with Kah Choon....
F*** him larr...
Scold me..
I HATE HIM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im goin Guess in LOT 10 and KLCC tmw ...
=)

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