Got the pictures from Wee and MeL...Our genting trip =P
As you can see, the date is kinda old ... i drafted this quite long ago but forgot to post it =P
Anyway, if im not mistaken, we went Genting on the next day after monash results were out..13 july... :)
It was a torture getting up so early... i reached Yee Leng house at 8.15 am... waiting for alex to pick us up to Kl Sentral... met up with Wee in Kl Sentral and we took a bus up to Genting... The package up to Genting from Kl Sentral is worth it... RM35 plus theme park tickets and two way bus tickets.. We supposed to take cabel car up to Genting but the cabel car station was closed for service.. The bus ride was half an hour to 45 mins... The ride is awesome.. bumpy around the corner... wee is scared of bus ride .. =PpP hehe... i was trying to keep my mind of my not so good results :( Jason, Joey, Melissa, Siu Siu and Joanne took the 11am bus ride while the four of us (Me,Yee Leng, Alex and Wee) took a 10 am bus ride.. The four of us reached earlier and we walked around First World Hotel while waiting for Jason, Mel, Joey, Siu and joanne to arrive.. Wee was smoking like mad -_- he claimed that because its genting and its cold, so can smoke more.. right... crapy betul... -_""" Once Jason and the four awesome girls :) reached, and after they checked in ( they are putting a night in Theme Park Hotel).. we went to theme park... Jason as usual was bullying me; mocking my height, my supposingly bimbo-ness, etc etc :( I hate u jason Lim !!!!!!!!! *dun make me write tat particular nick ere* hehehe =pP The rides in Theme Park were awesomeeee... :) eventhough im kinda scared even before sitting it.. but still i wurvee it cos i wurve exciting stufff .. hehee......... but i skipped one particular rides.. the new ride... erm, i think it's called flying coaster ?!? but all of us called it superman returns ride =P LoLz... i dare not take this particular ride... MeL screamed even before they started going up .. hehee... u can see her feets moving up and down... =P once the ride started, the girls didnt scream as much.. hmmm, maybe it's not as scary as me and wee thought? but jason was laughing like mad up there.. everyone scream except for him... -_" wtf... me and wee skip this ride... oh well.... we had fun while waiting for them too rite Wee?? =P oh oh.. before i post pictures, i remembered walking in to BumCity and saw SpongeBob soft toy.. hehe... i wurvee it... :) but i didnt get it.. was actually thinking whether to get it anot... but then i forgot all about spongebob when we went in to theme park.. even i remember and wana get it, i dont have the time to went back there to get it.. :((((( *sob* SPONGEEEBOBBBBB
alriteyy.. pictures ... :)









mua and wee dear :) *big squishy hugs* excuse d double post.. i dont why double pics alwis appear when i post pics... i think blogspot hate me :/
me, alex, and yee leng.... my high school frens :) Dj-ians peeps .. lolz
me, wee dear, yee leng... he's jealous cos Alex gets to take picture with the two girls... so he demanded Alex to take a picture of him with two girls as well -_"""
Yee Leng and mua in First World Hotel... Horses behind us... Horses that had light =)

Yee Leng and Alex.... been together for like forever :)
alex and mua in our shades... :))
Me and WeeDear :) Wee claimed that we look the same in the first picture... hmmm, good poser skills perhaps ? =Pp
Then, we got bored... so we cam-whore ourself.. =P while waiting for jason to arrive !-_"
meeeeeeeeeee :)
The boy trying to be a poser like me... think u can?maybe on tues lar =P wtf... lolz
Jason finally show his 'gorgeous face' *rolls eyes* .... =p after takin years of god knows what he's doing =p mua and jason with our shades :) we r posers ! ~~~ rite Jason ?? =P
The girls :) (l-r): Siu, Yee Leng, Mua, MeL, Joanne and Joey =)) KeL and Vonnie are missing tho :(((

i look weird in tis pic.. but the flowers are gorgeous... so focus on the flowers !! =) hehe...

The people that day :) [L-R]: Mua, Joanne, Siu, Jason, Joey, Yee Leng, MeL, Alex and Wee :)


Yee Leng, me, MeL, Joanne... MeL got nice dimples *jealous* =p

The girls minus Yee Leng.... we were waiting for some sort of ride... lurve this particular ride we are waiting for... its like sitting on a swing and u will get higher and higher and it will swing ... hehe... the only ride that im not scared of... hehehe =P

Jason, Alex, Yee Leng, Wee and me :)
Meeeee kissing some kinda statue tingy :)
Wee and me in some flying elephant kinda ride :) we self-potrait ... niceeeeeeeee ?? LoLz
Yee Leng and Alex... on the flying elephant ride :)

Jason and the girls.. they take pictures without the four of us... cos they said fliyng elphant is a lame ride -_"

muaaa :) look at the ride behind me.. that's the ride me and dear skip ! i dont want to come down and end up throwing up -_"

The boy and mua.... damm! im short ! :/ I hate being short! *doing Vonnie screams* hehe



Alex and his gal, Yee Leng :)

me and Wee... *thanx for everything* :) even tho u alwiz bully me, mean to me and harsh to me *smacks ur head* =P

me and jason.... when we pose, we can really pose :) wtf...
MeL and Jason...
Siu and Jason...
Jason and Joanne..

Joey and Jason... JOey is super tall... i wish i have her height and mel's dimple


Everyone was sitting on the flying coaster ride except for the two of us.. so we cam-whore =P he got influenced by me... he lurve taking pics as much as me now =P lolz
wee and mua ... inside some kinda traditional kinda car tingy.. and im driving ! *beams proudly*


Alex and Yee Leng .....

Spot the similarities and differences in both pictures.. :)
mua and wee on the boat ride...The boat ride is uber romantic.. but when i mentioned this to him, all he said was, " ok-lar. i know my leg dam tired from pedalling" -_"""" sighs... guys are not romantic at all !!
There are more pictures but blogger is hating me.. i cant post anymore pictures .. :/ will post more when blogger is being nice to me =P
Genting was fun... :) but it will be more fun with KeL and Von ...because KeL's laughter is contagious... and Von wtf is contagious oso... and u guys dont want to go!!! y? y? :( hate u lar! =p heheee......... it was great tho..with the cold air but it will be more awesome if my results were better ... wtf .. sighss... oh well...........
toodless...............................

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Im piss.... i dont know why..........
Im listening to emo songs....till thinking about nonsense....
Arghh..a big sorry to those that if i accidentally scolded you guys... im jus feeling piss at this moment.. i dont know why... maybe cause i dont understand the stuff im reading for money and cap... or wait... i cant sleep..... :(( everyone is sleeping soundly... who should i disturb? my bestest fren Jason Lee is sleeping like a pig... i called him jus now and he asked me to call him back tmw morning -_""" and i bet WenZ is sleeping... and i know how much she needs her beauty sleep.. so i decided not to disturb her.... KEL is most prob be sleeping ... sighss... who is awake at this moment? so i can rant a lil on my mood swings..... :((( im getting fatter.. mummy said i need to eat less... waaaaaaaaaaaaa.............. *sulk* *sulk*
I just remembered who i can disturb at this moment.... hehee.... guess... guess hard... *giggles*
yessss.... WeE... im gona call him now and disturb him.. hehe.. =D he should know that i dont sleep earlyy.. hehee......... thank god for him... :) im a luckyy girl... *u un what i meant rite?* :)

toodles people... im gona bug him noww..
*pray that he can listen to his phone ringing*
niteyyyyy ...........

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My mom woke me up at 9 plus in the morning today...She said, " if you want to repair your mp3, you better wake up now" .. i woke up and got ready and she came into my room telling me no need to go early cos she had to go her fren's house... WTF !! i were feeling so fcukking piss that moment.. fcukkk ! then why the fcuk you wake me up so early for... fcuking piss mann... arghh.... and my babyy is still not with me... babyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... where art thou ?? missing my babbyyy... without my baby, im so lost... babyyyyyyyyyyy :((

Yesterday was spent in 1u with Von, KeL, Justin, Way, Sab and Cheetah (new face)... =P missing KeL and Von so much =) Dear suprised me in the morning.. he came to my place at 11 plus in the morning? made me my milo kosong ais... thermos keep cold? -_"" lurvee the milo kosong ais dearr.. thanx :) * big squishy hugs* he left bout 12 plus as he had lecture at 1.. but that silly boy forgot to check his timetable and misread it.. so he had to be in uni alone till his next lecture at 3 .. i hope he's alone =P and not doing anything kinky? =PP i reached 1u at 4.45 .. hehe.. was doing econs assginment back at home =P hence, the late-ness. Met up in Guess.. Guess sales is kinda cheap... :) but didnt buy much.. im on budget :/ and i know mummy will nag me like hell if i were to buy anymore stuff in ermm Guess.. KeL, Von and Sab came just on time afta i grab some bags and desperately need girls opinion... :) Then, Jason came with Wee, Justin, Way and Cheetah.. That Jason fella is so mean.. say wana hang out with us.. but nv !! celaka sial =P Watched American Haunting.. I hate movie that based on real life kinda thing.. arghh. that show remind me of Exorcism of Emily Rose.. Shitttt.. but thank god its not as scary... if not, most prob, I will FORCE someone to stay in my house to accompany me.. yess, im a scaredy cat =P The movie is only bout 1 hour plus.. After movie, went to TopShop to see SherVe :) That gal is complaining how bitchy her boss is =P missing her lots.. :) After a lil topshop visit, we decided to go AC... to eat.. :) and Von, i eat .. :)) wee ate pan mee and i had popia.. hmmm, i got a thing for popia and spring rolls... ask KeL and Von if you dont believe.. 3 nights in a row eating popia ?=P oh well.. and i think von and sab were gross out by me and wee.. cos we ate chilli like nobody's business... hehe.... i lurveeeeee chilli... :)) and im dying for spicy foods.. after 3 weeks of eating foods with no chillies... wowww.... spicy foods ere i come ! =P
Wee sent Sab and KeL back home and drop me home after that ... *thanx dearr* even tho, u lazy to turn back to give me my babbyyy back.... :(( oh well... i hope my babyy is in good condition! and charge it if got no battery =P
and yess, i un why ur car had to start again... wait... actually, i dont un =P u evil....bully me... harsh to me... LoLz... went back home and after a shower, i dont feel like sleeping cos my baby is not with me... so, online and continue with my econs assignment :) oh well.... *shrugs*

And im still feeling piss... stupidddddddddddddddddd..... .i wana go repair my mp3 .............. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... fcukkkkkkkkkkk............................ and wee nv reply my msg...... i hate him.... where's my babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ??????????

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My baby phone is in Wee's car.. :( i left my phone there when he drop me home and he dont want to turn back to give me back! celaka sial ! :(( im missing u baby.......... the phone i mean, not you Wee!! :P everyone that know me know i cant survive without my phone... right WeNz? she will know that if my phone is missing, i cant sleep, cant eat for ages =Pp LolZ.
Had some ups and downs last night... had some kinda emo thing going on last night.. anyway, everything's back to normal today :))

Happy 1 month anniversary Wee dear ! LoLz..
Tho we had our misunderstanding, ups and downs... but thanx for alwis being there for me..Even when you alwis bully me =P but we still had our happy moments :)
*thanx for the sweet lil thing u gave me.i wurve it :) *

and i did something for you too, but cos im so mad at you i decided not to give u! *i know u r reading my blog!* =P maybe i give you next time ? :) but you dont really care those little things right ? :)


*i wan my baby back*
babyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ...... my phone wee.. not you =Pp

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Hello new haircut

I know why i am dreading to take econs again.. because i so HATE it.. im trying to start on the econs assignment 1.. waaa... fcuk... this sem econs harder ar? why like so HARD wan? first question of the assignment is already 5 marks? *gasp* OMGGG !!! oh man, if assignment is harder, then finals will be harder oso ?? OH SHIT... im so dead ... im so fcuking dead... what if i had to take it again next sem? *gasp in horror* ... equilibrium, quantity demanded, supply, factors..... arghh! :(

Since im not really into the mood of doing econs now.. :P
i shall post pictures.... hmmm, but go no pictures to post :P cos my pen drive is with mich =P oh well, i shall post it another time...

after thinking for few mins, i decided to post the before and after picture tingy on me..... :))




before my hair cut.. im missing my long hair.. hehehehe .. :P :P

hello short hair... :)

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Sometimes it's better for me to express myself in words than to verbally talk to express myself..
Because when i express myself verbally, i cant bring the words that i want to say..
Reading Cynthia's blog make me think about what's the real me...
Sometimes i dont even know.. am i different in somebody's eyes?
OR am i the same in everyone's eyes?
When he said he looks at you differently, does he mean it ?
When he said you are different from the rest, you realized that you wouldnt care what other people think about you because you know you are different in that person's eyes..
You know that person believe in you..
You know that person is gona be there for you, gona go down the road that's full with insecurities with you..
And you feel safe.. warm... secure... happy...
But you wonder, what makes you different than what he sees in others? how can he possibly see it when everyone doesnt?
I know the moment he gets close, at times i pull back...
maybe cos of the....things... i went through....
i fear... im afraid...... im scared... im vulnerable..
Im sensitive to what happen.. i am... but sometimes people misunderstand your sensitive-ness and misinterpret it as something else... something that can trigger a person's feelings/mood.
When i feel too comfortable in that certain path, what if it backfired ? what if you thought the person that can sees you differently is just lying? is just toying with you from the beginning?
I give my trust... i give it fully.. because if i dont, whats the use of he seeing you in a different way...
What is happiness ?
Happiness is when I see couples love each other even though they have fought many times or given each other the 'silent treatment' but still see them stay faithful and committed to each other.

I believe happiness is obtain when you know he sees you differently.. he believes in you.. he trusted you.. he sees the real you and you can be yourself, which include being childish in front of him.. not afraid to cry in front of him because you know he will hold you when you cry, he will tells you everything it's alright even tho both of you know that a simple sentence is not the way to everything..You are not afraid to tell him whats on your mind... you go to him when you got problem and both of you worked it .. when you know he trust you at any circumstances... also, he knows you are sad even tho you said you are feeling alright cos he can sees thru u.. he knows when you are jus acting strong when you are feeling weak at tat time.. and happiness is when you know he can be your mate, best fren, girl fren, guy fren and study partner at any time..... a simply gesture that most people might think that's no big deal can put a smile on your face........that's happiness to me... happiness is not when he had to buy you expensive stuff to cheer you up.. or he brings you somewhere expensive..... it's when you and him sitting on the park, looking at the twinkling stars and just talk whatever that comes into your mind........ or having picnic outside your house, on the porch... or celebrating the duration of time you guys together by being with each other, doing nothing on your anniversary but you have each others company.. that's all it matters...

Sometimes it might look safe and secure, but there's hidden obstacles that you cant see .. and when it happens, it's impact it so strong that you will end up thinking maybe you should be a different person and act differently........

Thinking back the memories i had with....

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Finally, got the pictures from Aaron..
It was sometime during the holidays..
That week when everyone in Monash or ACCA finished their finals..
That week where we supposed to go Ghetto but cant make it...
So we went Absolute in Bangsar instead... Oh well..
It was still fun :)
I remember that night someone did something sweet for me .. hehe ..
Anyway, pictures...
It's been awhile since i post pictures :)
Oh btw, Jason lied to not only me and KeL but to MeL, joey, Joanne and Siu Siu as well..
Last night, he told us that he got a haircut.. a super short haircut that's close to bald...
And i was being so nice, pujuking him, telling him he would look nice no matter wat..
But he lied to us! wtf.. i hate u jason...
Oh and today, we went to Pepper Corn, in ss15 for lunch.. been awhile since im back in taylors area... memories mann...... :) bitter sweet memories...










Aaron is not good at taking pictures in front of the mirror... =P we were in his house waiting for Wee to finish getting ready... Wee took like half an hour? to get ready -_-
KeL and mua.... supposingly a lan si pose... but oh well.. =P

I duno what was i doing.. if im not mistaken, making my hair ?!? =p mich happily enjoying her bacardi shots =P

KeL with Bacardi :) she looks hot... dosent she ? =))
mua and mich.. my face is reddd !! :( die... i jus realized that my face gets red easily after a few shots of alcohol.. die... :((

On the dance floor ...jason look funny ere =P
im behind =P i cant recalled why i was laughing like mad .... maybe something jason did? =P

Kel, mich and jason.. on the dance floor.. im hidden... =P



me and Aaron... my face is super uber red :(

Aaron and KeL.... they look nice in pictures :)

Aaron, KeL and Mich....

me, aaron and mich... they look nice! waahh, my face is gila red wheyy.... :( lobster red ! :(

Wee dear and mua.... his old hairstyle =) i shall post the before and after haircut tingy one day :) my face still look red.. celaka... but my arms look skinny ere =P This was taken before going to Langkawi...too much junk foods in langkawi made me gain weight :(


Jason and KeL...

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I cant sleep... :(
Currently talking to Jason Lim Jo-weng.. =P
I nudge KeL but she's not replying me.. :(
So i blog... AGAIN... im addicted to blogging nowadays.. must be WenZ bad influence =P
Ooohhh.. after few nudge ... KeL replied me.. wtf =P
I got nothing to blog ... so i shall blog about myself... :)


My Top 5 Favourites:

1. My stinky pillow
2. My handphone,which is my baby.. lost it, i wil errmmmm kill someone =P
3. My babess :))
4. Anything with cheese :) anyone wana bake for me blueberry cheesetart or cheesecake?i will love you so much =Pp
5. My camera :)

My Top 5 Least Favourites:

1. Liars..
2. Cheaters..
3. Fakers..
4. Two-timers...
5. Irresponsible..

5 truths about me:

1. Im shy .. hehe
2. Im responsible
3. I care about stuff..
4. I express myself better in words...
5. Im patient :) at times and at a certain exteend :)

5 Things i like in a guy:

1. Loyal
2. Honest..
3. Responsible..
4. Kind :)
5. Romantice, perhaps ?!?? =P

Im off to watch some show on tv... byeeeeeeee....... heheheheeh
Ooohh.. and jason cut his hair .. LoLz... i promise i wont laugh dam loud =P

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Class officially start today..
Arghh... I miss business law tute.. oh well.
The first class i had after a long holidays was economic tute... arghh.. the gagging horror.
First class is econs? Like double eww... everyone in my econs tute is first year, first sem..except for me, Yin and Andrew.. The worst part was my tutor, Ms Poon recognized me and yin.. we were in her class last sem... She's giving us 'that smile'.. -_-
Sometimes i wonder why some people study so freaking hard for econs but still failed.. but some that do work hard but not as hard pass with flying color... wtf... fcukking unfair !
Arghh.. i had to go through econs lecture and tute again for ermm 13 teaching weeks?
S***... :(((((( *sighs sadly*
Vonnie and KeL came and find me today... well, actually KeL came do to some stuff in Monash.. but oh well, i like to think it as she and von find me on purpose =P *ngeks*
Jason was being extra nice today for picking Von and KeL.. but as usual he was banging me -_-
I hate him lar... but i knw KeL will help me wan rite???if he bully me?=P
Had lunch in Pink Shop ... KeL had one last time of her fettucini carbonara .. eh, KeL, not your last time k.. u so gona come again and again ! i dont care.. im gona make u eat your black pepper udon and carbonara many many times !
Wee was being so nice today.. His class ended at 9am but he stayed back til 1 plus to teman me..
And he even offer to fetch me back.. hmmm... *wonders why* maybe he did something wrong?=P Did you ,Wee? =Pp LoLz.. Well, i hope this is not the first time and the last time he's being so nice..I still got long hours break for 13 teaching weeks you know! so you know *hint* *hint* and dun lar so mean, say stuff like, " if i got time, i sure teman u but i doubt so lar i got time" -_" why lar so mean?:(((
And now KeL is not ere to teman me dy, you have to replace her and teman me! :))
Supposed to go pyramid with KeL and Von, but was kinda feeling tired.. sorry you guys.. And KeL, dont lar make me feel guilty =P
I came back and slept til jus now.. i jus woke up only =P hehe.. and im stil feeling tired..
oh well... arghh.. class again tmw.. and i got five hours break every tuesday.. :( I so wana crash in someone's hse to oink oink =P But Aaron said, "5hours break? good lar. Go library study!" -_-
hmmmm, maybe i should when Wee is being harsh and mean and neglect me for my 5hours break.. :( which i know he will ! sighs.. guys are meanine ! =PpP
Wee drop me back home and off he went to the workshop to send his car to repair.. He asked my mum for direction to NKVE, which i dont know how to go =P *sorry wee* he looked so confused when my mum try to explain to him the way to NKVE.. such an adorable sight to see =P and my mum is worry that he might get lost or something and asked me to msg him to check on him.. my mum never concern bout me this way! she never called me to check whether i can find my way to the place i want to go ! -_" wait, come to think of it, i hardly drive to somewhere far.. only to 1u or curve.. hehehe... no wonder lar she din call me =Pp oh well ... LoL..
arghhh.. my 5 hours break tmw... anyone know anyone with such long hours break for Tuesday? tell me, so i can bummed around with him/her... because i knw Wee will definitely be ignoring me.. KeL oh KeL, where art thou? =P

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HeLLo Short Hair.. Good bye Long Hair

I got my hair cut today !
Supposingly a trim but end up kinda short..
Arghh..
Im missing my old hair..
I look like a small girl now.. :(((
And yess, my hair is still light brown.. like what wenZ said, i love my light brown too much =P
But i did cut my hair short ...and you can notice the difference Wen!! not like last time, whenever i cut my hair, she will said that it will end up like never cut ! -_-
So wen, u owe me starbuck drinks for cutting my hair short? =PpP hehe
i kinda regret 'trimming' my hair... cos it end up so short...but oh well, it's good to look like a small kid.. cos then i can act childishly without ppl saying, "mature abit lar" =P
And i dam bengang when my cousins tell me this,
" hair short good ma, so when you make out with you guy that time, it wont get in the way"
-_""""""""""
riteeee.....riteee.. wtf =P
Anyway, i lazy to do the before and after pictures tingy.. im just gona post the after picture!those that know me will know what's my before hairstyle like :)



my weird short hair........ :(((

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Im sitting in front of computer thinking about stuff..
Stuff that i wished it would never happen..
I been recalling some stuff for the whole day today..
Listening to emo songs does not help either.
I been thinking what i really want..And i still dont know..
I have doubts on people's trust..
I have negative thoughts on people because sometimes looks can be decieving..
I feel that it's better not letting anyone know too much details about yourself including those that's close to you..

I know it's a bad habbit of mine to sometimes have doubts on people..But sometimes you cant trust anyone but yourself.Some girls said," but you can trust your girlfriends/your special one"
I once trusted those two categories... but end up falling into the black hole.. i know it's prejudice.. and i must changed the way im thinking about all this... at times, i did it..i trusted those that i felt can be trusted... but at times, im thinking that if trusting someone is so easily, then why is there people crying over betrayal.. crying over their broken-heart.. crying over empty promises..
Communication is the key to everything... I agree but it depends on how you are using it..some abuse the used of communication... and some cant grasp the idea of communicating...
I communicate with my friends easily.......But at times, i felt that it's hard to talk about certain issues.. issues that I know I want to find the answers to.. but i cant bring myself to ask it.. ask the questions... There are a number of things i wana find out.. but i cant bring myself to ask the answers... i hate it... i vow that i must change to be someone that are not afraid of asking..
Because asking is a way to make things clear... to state about certain stuff.. and some stuff need to be stated... need to be clear before moving on to a next stage...
And im still thinking on how to ask it.. asking the things that i want to know..
Or maybe it's not important at all... the things i want to know..
but still i cant get it out from my mind....
maybe i should just errrmmmm ... nvm...

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Im not even in the mood to go out anymore..
I saw an ad showing that Topshop seasons sales starts on 13 july, and i was like, "Oh wuteva."
Going shopping on Tuesday in Sunway Pyramid will most probably be the last time im gona shop for the month of July.
I did had fun in Genting yesterday (minus the part where we miss our bus)..
Good company.. great ambience.. cold air...
But i couldnt bring myself to enjoy that much..
Im thinking bout my freakinggg unfair results most of the time im there..
Sighss..
Yesterday, Elaine asked me to Laundry... and at first i so wana go but thinking bout my results kinda spoilt my mood.. sorrii babee !!
And today pirates of the carribean 2 is release.. and im not even excited about it.. before that, i was so freaking excited about it.. im waiting for that day to arrive..
But now? all i want to is jus stay at home, stay in my room and mourn about it..
I disappoint my parents for putting so much hopes for me..
I envy those that get good grades..
I hate myself for not trying hard enough..
I fell sad for myself..
First time ever, Kat is not interested in Mega Sales or going out..
Fcukk ler....
Im just so gona weep and mourn...
Yess, im emo over small lil things but it is big to me..
so like what KeL said, to those fakers, dun even try to act fake in front of us.. cos we aint gona take it anymore..

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The fark up-ness of my life..
On wednesay, when i called KeL to talk to her cause it's been awhile since i talked to her, she answer me by giving me the worst news of all.
Result's out..
My heart actually stop beating for one second..
My palms got so freaking sweaty..
My heart drop a mile..

Jason did the checking for me as i couldnt face to check it..
He checked and when he told me what i got,
Im like, "FARKKKKKKing HELL..."
I dont even wana mention my results here..
And to those that are spreading me and my friends not so grand results, please fark off..
Seriously..
Dont give me the line of concerning about us, its fcukking bullshit k..
Yess, i screwed up my grades in Monash..
Yess, im not the only one who screwd up...
Am i supposed to say woo hoo ?? or yay ? wtf..
I thought i can do better..
All the late night study..
All the trips down to the library..
All the hard effort..
Gone down the drain..
I dont get what the hell monash is thinking...
And the result's out on wed not tues..Usually bad things happen on Tues but not other day..
It;s so freakingg unfair.. i think it is.. Dam disappointed... WHY ? WHY ? WHY ME ??
Maybe like what KeL said, you need to go thru some stuff to realize some stuff..
Maybe Monash is not the place for me as well..
Im not giving up.. i dont give up that easily.. but sometimes when God shows you the way..
You cant accept it.. and even my dad said the same thing.. and usually he wont said such things no matter how bad my grades ar.. First time ever in my 19 years of life, he said that if i dont feel like studying in Monash anymore, maybe i should change..
And maybe he's right, my dad i mean.. maybe Monash its not the right place for me..
No doubt Monash is a good uni.. a well-known Uni... but not everyone can be succesful in Monash..Some score good even if they are not in monash...
I hate business course anyway.. i do.. Since high school, im interested in pursuing Hotel and Tourism Management or Media program or Mass Communication..
And talking to KeL make me emo... Im so gona miss you KeL... no matter where you are, you will still be special to me.. arghh... emo emo... dun ever make me cry again with your emo talk..
I still cant accept the fact that i get such results... its farking disappointing you know..
And im still deciding whether to stay in monash or change..
Wee, i hope monash office burn down as well ... so they had to remark and stuff like that..
Fark Monash lar..seriously..

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Cold sweat...
Disappointment all over me..
WHY ?? WHY ?
WHY ME??
WHY THE FUCK HAVE TO BE ME ??
I dont get it ...
WhY THE FUCK MONASH HAVE CERTAIN FAILURE PERCENTAGE ???
WHAT the Fuck is wrong with MONASH ?
Arghh... fcukk monashh..
Life is so freaking unfair.......
Gosh...
My freaking monash result is out ...
FCUKK IT LAR ...
SERIOUSLY..........
I dont even know how the fuck they mark the papers?
And what herder thing ?
Fark it larr...
It's dam freaking unfair ...
Dam unfair...
DAM UNFAIR ..........
WHY THE FUCK HAVE TO BE ME ?
WHY ??
Screw every single ting lar...
Monash is a fucked-up place ...
seriouslyyy...
KeL.. *hugs*
we will go thru it ... :) love u lots :)

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I woke up pretty early today considering the fact that i slept at 7am yesterday?
or should i say this morning?
I woke up at 9am..
Yesss...Some fella rang the doorbell at 9am!
Wtf..
And it's one of the sellers trying to sell to me some lucky plant!
I was like, "huh?"
The guy talked in mandarin..
I said, "Sorry, i dont understand mandarin and my parents are out.So come back later"
Then i walked up to my room eventho that huy keep calling me and keep said, "wait..wait(in cantonese).
Just when i closed my bedroom door, someone rang the doorbell again, which i think its the same guy.,.
I put on my mp3 and blast the volume and fall back to sleep, ignoring the guy..
hehee.. meanie ? yess, i knw =P
I woke up at 11, thanx to my mummy who came back at maybe 10.58? and woke me up at 11!
she said if i keep sleeping anymore, i will be as lazy as a pig -_"
I drag myself out from the bed and switch on the tv, which is my usual routine..
Woke up and on the tv :) hehe
Im so lucky that my mum woke me up at 11!
You know why?
Cause TRL is on MTV at 11! hehe .. yipeee..
Imagine me missing TRL is like me forgetting to drink water.. hehe =P
After TRL, went Ikea with my parents :)
I lurve seeing furniture..
Saw so many pretty lamps and decorations for rooms..
And dad told me its time to change my wardrobe because he stated that the door kenot close due to my clothes..
So in other words, he said i got too many clothes and i should stop buying !
I innocently replied him with, "where got the door kenot close because of my clothes.It's the door cacat dy lar.The cupboard not good.Lousy quality" =p
hehee..
Anyway, a new wardrobe cupboard will be coming to my house this week..
Yipeeee...
And im gona do some room renovation this week .. hehe
a brand new sem starting, a brand new room, a brand new look..LoLZ.
Back home, my mum asked me to take out the clothes and put in on my brother's bed first..
I took some of it out and ermmmm i do have too many clothes..
But not as alot as most of my girlfrens.. hah !
And that includes you guys; Von, Mich, KeL, Wen, Sherve !! =p
Oh gosh, this is the time when i need Wen to help me pack! =p
Wennnn !!! can u come over and help me pack my clothes ?
You can take anything that you want ! =Pp

oh... on sat, i saw a ring from Forever 21 that resembles 'someone's Tiffany ring *name should be annoymous*
And the ring in Forever 21 is only RM15 but the Tiffany ring most prob cost few hundreds bucks...







that ring is from Tiffany... Forever 21 has the exact design which cost RM15.. hahahahah
And i just clear my mail..
I didnt know i got multiply account 0_0
hahaa.. dumb old me..
So should made full used of it...
Check my link for my multiply ya !!
hehee .. *beams*
nitey.

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Italy won !!
Italy is the champion of the world cup 2006..
Woo hooo...
Italy babyyy :))
Yesterday, I watch the match while working :(
KeL, Von, Sab, Justin, Way and Jason went to Mont Kiara ..
I so wana go there to chill with them but i need to work..
Yeaa, i know...
I should have fake sick rite, Jason ? =p
But responsibility ler...
Im a responsible person you know... hehe
Oh well, im glad you guys have fun aite ? :))
I was working at the Germany 06 Hotlink Carnival in Jalan Bukit Bintang..
It was tiring and exhausted :/
I reached Bukit Bintang at 6.30pm
The carnival starts at 9 but the crowd is there at 7..
The girls working there were HOT :)
The guys working there were CUTE :)
When i reached there, i went into the 'Staff only' tent and i saw the girls curling their hair -_"
While the guys were trying to apply gel/wax/hairspray on their hair -_""
So now i know why my friend(that's in charge of getting me this job) asked me to be there early..
He thought i will be like one of the girls there, need time to do some last minute errm beauty routine..
Which i dont.
But they were quite friendly :)
When the girls saw me in my usual straight hair, one of them grabbed me and said this,
" OMG! u so totally need to curl your hair! all of us are in curls darling! Come come. I brought curler.Sit straight k"
me: "erm, erm, right.."
So that night i had curls.. curls.. :))
And we cam-whore inside the tent before its time for us to be out there :)
hehehe...
Even the guys wana be part of the cam-whore session.
My outfit that night is cute.. i likey likey :)
I'm in charge of the hotlink members area..
Which at first i thought, hmm shouldnt be too tiring cos only in charge of one particular area rite.
Turns out, im so wrong.Who could have guess that so many people are hotlink members.
I had to check their member's card..
Gosh, these people are so impatient to get in -_-
Imagine them pushing to enter and me had to stop them to check their member card.
Thank god for the security guards.
If not, i would be crushed ! :/
And some just wana enter the hotlink zone so badly that they told me that they forget to bring the card.
ERmm, rite..
It was a good experience..
I get to meet Skeletor, the man that is in charge of hitz.fm club hits every sat night, if im not mistaken.
The man that air all the nice booty shaking songs..
:)
I got the privileges of meeting the international and local artistes and the hitz.fm DJs and cruisers.. hehe
*beams happily*
JJ and Rudy were entertaining..
He made all of laugh like mad during our break :)
And Skeletor challenge me and Paul, one of the guy working there as well to a drinking game..
He mix a drink for us and we had to down it in one shot..
No stopping...
I dont know what he mixed the drinks with but the effect is errr gruesome...
The effect went straight to your head.. :((
Arghh... but the drink taste nice..
A lil sweet + a lil bitter = niceee ;)
I likey likey..
Then, my face got red..i dont know why..
Maybe cos of the heat + the alcohol ?!?
And the funniest part was, one of the guy in the hotlink member area said some kind of chat up line that sounds so freaking silly to my ears.
He said, "Babe, are you blushing now cos im talking to you"
I was giving him the like eww look...
OMGG! im so not blushing because of you.. -_""""
And erm no offense to any malays there..
But i hate it..no.. wait.. i DAM HATE it when a group of malay guys keep trying to get your attention by calling you "AMOI"
Like wtf ?!?
I hate it...
But the bright side, i get to talk to Flipsdye.. hehe
Eventho i dont know who they are... hahahahah =Pp
They gave me an autograph cd ..
But i bet it will be somewhere lost in my pile of junks soon in my room =P LoLz.
Halfway, before the match started, JJ and Rudy asked the staff whether wana bet on the match anot..
The first thing i said was, Italy confirm win!
But most of them were like u sure? u confirm?
I happily said, of cos lar. Italy whey. dun play play.
Then, all of them were like, "if you are so sure bout it, made a bet"
My confidence level kinda drop after that..
But the girls and mua still choose Italy!
Hah.. and Italy won!! woo hooo !!
Paul, u owe me a meal in San Fransisco Steak House ! =p
John, u owe me a day of being my chauffeur! =P
Mike, u owe me a foot massage! =P
And the rest, you guys owe me !!! =P
LoLz.. Look down at Italy sumore, in the end, who gets the last laugh !*ngeks*
Did i mentioned how aching my legs were?
Wearing a pair of heels, standing most of the time and walking on the road..
is a total nightmare...
I was so tired that night.. uber tired...
My phone battery konk during the match..
I think my phone battery something wrong.. :((
Wee trying to called me many times but my phone were off..
That silly boy was in Bukit Bintang as well..
An impromptu kinda thing i guess.He msg me telling me he's in BB as well
but he didnt looked for me :(
Wee, if you are reading this, You are MEAN!!
You came down to BB oso never find me :/
I was so tired..i reached home at 6plus ?!?
my feet is aching like mad now..
Anyone wana offer to massage my feet ?? =Pp
And Italy babyyyy....
Italy rocked the world !! ;))))
But still, i rather hang out in Mont Kiara with you guys *you guys know who you are* :))

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Yesterday was spent in my friend, Jean's house..
She was feeling uber down because of a HUGE fight with her darling..
Sighs.. Guys nowadays can be a pain in the ass at times ..
She was crying like mad :((
But the weirdest part bout her is that when she's emo or mad or sad, she cook!
Yesss... not cooking maggie mee kinda cook..
She started off by making some French toast tingy..
Then, she made lasagna..
Then, she made pasta..
Then, chicken salad..
Then, bake chocolate chip cookies and cheesecake ...
Gosh.. i wonder who's gona finish all these fattening foods -_"
But me helping her cook was a blast..
As you all know, i like cooking..
I lurveee cooking..
It's just that i dont cook at home cos my parents are so afraid to try the food i cook -_"
Not like i will poison them..
Gosh...
I thought she will be better after cooking all the foods but she still feel so emo..
And we started talking about emo stuff ...
And she started telling me what her darling did..
It got me thinking about some stuff..
And both of us emo -_""
Guess who end up finishing up all the foods?
me and her and her bf...
Yea, they did made up at the end..
Cos i cant stand her crying anymore and i called the bf and asked him to come over eventho she denied that she hate him and dont want to see his blardy face anymore(yes, her words).
But i know she wants to see him..
Kathryn the match maker =P
Anyway, i called her bf, which is my ex bf, good fren which bcome my good fren as well..
weird? hehee ...
and he came over and did the talking and stuff..
and they live happily ever after..
i love happy ending...
i love seeing couples happy :)
But sometimes guys are just TOO BLUR to realized stuff..
To make things alright..
*rolls eyes*
I came home feeling dam full and there goes my waistline =P
I came home happily but... but... something came up again./...
Arghhh.. i hate it wheyyy..
Make me emo again...
wtf... wtf...
i dam hate it when things occured but some people just dont realized it eventho the prob is coming from them.........
wtf..
Not only that, but im not sure whether they are pretending to ignore the problem or the fact that they really dont know about it ?
Sometimes i really dont understand ...
SERIOUSLY FREAKING DONT UN !
Oh well... i guess i had to forget about it..

Anyway, today was a suprising day..
Went to JW Marriot for high tea with KC sis and oso 1 of his fren...
The foods was awesome.. I tried every single thing there and i end up too full again..
The awesome part was KC sis know one of the chef there and there are few chefs cooking some kinda food..
So we got chef cooking food for us........ :)
ok not technically cooking for us only but still..
How many guys nowadays can cook?
And no, not cooking maggi mee, or fried eggs or cooking white rice those kinda thing..
As in real meal..
I doubt so..
hehe
Guys cooking are just dam hot :)
KeL, remember Aaron the naked chef ?? =Pp
Guys should learn to cook !! :))
It's such a nice feeling when guys cook for you..
:)
We talked for ages about stuff..
And both of them asking me about KC stuff..
-_""
There's nth much i can answer them...
Oh well...
At a point, it was kinda akward..
But i talked to them about everything ..
I feel better..
Much more better till i overeat AGAIN :(
hehe..
Im feeling better...
:)
Happier :)
Fatter :( :)
hahaha.........
And i found out that buffalo is the silliest animal on earth..
LoLz...
Trust me..
:)
Till then.. nitez ppl..

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“The feeling we get that someone is better than us is merely an illusion. It is an effective illusion, but an illusion nonetheless. When we really want someone, this illusion must exist or else we wouldn’t want them that badly. The solution to being intimidated is not to try to imagine them as more human, but simply to accept the fact and make up our mind to act IN SPITE OF our being intimidated.”

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I'm bored and emo...
I'm dam emo...
I was sposed to meet KeL, Von, Sab, Justin, Way in 1u this afternoon..
But cause i got some 'stuff' that happened to me...
I cant make it..
Sorrri KeL and Von...
I hate being emo..
So many stuff are happening but so little time to handle it.
Alrite... i kinda exaggerate a lil but still, i'm not sure what's my final decision..
Me myself is freaking confused..
Confused on the fact that (..................................................................)
Im tossing in my bed every night thinking about my decisions.
Im not sure in the first place my decisions are right or isit wrong.
Im trying to think that i should give chances..
Because you never know what might happen with one lil chance you give to the person..
But..But..
I'm thinking that maybe what i did what wrong..
Maybe i shouldnt even let myself be in this situation..
I'm not sure what to feel at the moment.
Different feelings of guilt, sadness and depression have been sinking in since late last night.
Its so weird how you can never be closer to anyone else in the world and the next, you barely know each other anymore.
I know I'm the one who should be blamed for this.
Maybe I didnt fight enough.
Maybe I should have tried harder.
But maybe it was meant to be even though I dont want it to.
It was difficult for me to make a decision.
Cos no matter what, everyone will get hurt.
Oh God...
I dont know whether should i go along with what i had decided or just to resolve things?
A part of me thought the decision will be the best for everyone..
But yet, another part of me is ignoring it and thought it will be selfish to do so..

Am i being selfish if i go ahead with what i have in mind?
Am i being thoughtless about those person around me if i go ahead with it?
Am i hurting those that really care bout me if i go ahead with it?
Do those that said they care, REALLY care?
Should i trust what anyone said?or should i not anymore?
Is trust really that important anymore?
Should i just ignore everything and go ahead with it?

Im off to the clinic now..
Medicine is really a nightmare to me now...
Heads pounding, throat uber painful, coughing like mad, body aching..
shuckkss........

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Morally, lying is wrong- or so I'm told.
Men lie not to get ahead but for reasons of self-preservation.
Think of it as social Darwinism.
Women developed makeup; men evolved lies.
I've encountered many stories of verbal landmines where men are doomed even before answering.
Why men lie?
I bet this is the answer many women would want to know.
And until today, i dont know why.
Some of my guy friends said they lie especially to their gfs just to protect them and dont want them to get hurt -_"
This is dam nonsensical and sadistical to me !
Sometimes, some might think lying is good..
But you know what?
Lies are bad..

Another random thought creep into my mind..
Labels and the truth.
Yea, i know some ppl said DJ girls are bimbo and everyting and link it to the truth without getting to know them.
But labels are just as bad as lying.
And i wonder whether labels and truths are link.
At times, i feel dumb.
In navigating my life.
I label myself as naive because i trust people too easily.
Im gullible because i believe that everyone is good.
Im actually alright with the fact that im naive and gullibe at times.
Because no harm believing in the good side of people right?
But yesterday made me think that maybe it's not good.
I'm hurt the fact that i trusted everyone but they dont.
To me trust and faith are important in anything and everything.
Without trust and faith, i felt that it's kinda useless in ........
I rambling...

Sometimes when i have one of those days when everything falls apart,
And i have no idea what to do about it,
I just wish for an understanding and consideration..
But i guess that's pretty hard to get it..

I'm tired of saying i dont care when actually i do care on what people talked about ..
Im tired of saying wuteva,forget about it when i cant.. i know i will stay up thinking about it..
I'm tired of trying to act as if everything is alright just to please the other party when i know i wil be the one that suffer.
I'm tired of be the middle person.
I'm tired of trying to make everything alright when i know it's not gona be alright.
I'm tired of trying not to cry and b strong because once you cried, ppl will think you are weak and whats the use of crying when everyone will just take it as another PMS day.
I'm tired of me understanding everyone but no one understand me..

If you only knew.......
I'm just ranting out some stuff..
I been thinking too much lately..
Been rethinking about some stuff..
Excuse the post if you guys want..

Im off to .....

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Shuckkk...
Im having a major headache right now.
My body is aching for no reason.
:((((((
OMGG... someone helppp me! :(
I been falling sick non-stop since i came back from Langkawi.
Shuckkk...
I spend my hols trying to make myself healthier :(
Yesterday night started off pretty bad.
Tensions, tears, and dramas.
Wtf.
Gosh... you know what?
I couldnt be bother about it anymore.
Yesterday night was suprisingly awesome.
I wasnt expected it to turn out this way.
But it was fun :)
I enjoy myself..minus the few err "stuffs".
I saw some friends that i had not seen in ages.
And oso the guys that used to be there for me whenever i need them too!(u guys know who you are and i know you read my blog! dont pretend that you dont! =Pp)
Thanx for all d late night yum-chas session, the late night talked, the shoulder for me to cry on..
*big squishy hugs to you guys* and i love you guys alot ! :)
You know i do! ;)
Im glad that the Ghetto plan failed..
Because i heard that Ghetto had some kind of operations tingy last night.
Hmmm.. my vocabulary is killing me now.
I cant think of proper words.
My head is freaking pounding.
Arghh...
So much stuff is going through my head right now.
Sighs..
*squishy hugs peeps*

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