Depression.. goodbye lil crush..

If life will only go ur way everytime, then my glass would be full by now.. but sad to say, life is jus not like tat.. the glass would alwiz be either half-empty or totally empty.. Everything is going in the opposite direction..

I never thought that this could happen... but it did..

Life is surreal..

All i wish know wat everything would jus og away.. & leave me in peace...
I cant stand the thoughts anymore..
Jus when u r getting excited about the crush, everything changed..

You know you have to let it go when it is time to let it go..
You cant hold on to it even though how much u want to...
You know the time to let this crush go when it doesn't turn out the way you want it to..
You know that it's time to back to your old routine...

but i jus cant seem to not think bout it..
It gives me hopes...
It give me see the light of the world..
but i guess the fate is not with me at this moment..

"Jus not think bout it & let it go"
Easier to say than actually doing it... If u keep telling yourself tat, then maybe one day you will be ok..
one day, you will forget bout it..
but jus not today.. nor tmw or the day afta tat..
it will be a long time for it to happen but it can happen..

But jus dun tell me no to think bout it because it is not easy to do tat..
it's like your wounds.. u know you are not supposed to touch it but yet you keep touching it..
because all you think about it, why cant i touch it..
it willl heal anyway.. yes, it will but when you touched it, it would take longer time to heal..

I feel that im sinking into the black hole..
getting deeper and deeper...
hopefully i would be able to get out of it & start feelin fresh again..

Oh god.. Now i know wat people meant that it is better to keep the old wan as it is where you can count on..
the new wan might be exciting but it is where you cant count on.. it's jus a ship full of suprises..once the suprises have run out, then it will be over..

Good-bye little crush...
it was fun for a while..
but it is time to end it once and for all..
It is time for reality..
Time to get my arse back to the old routine..
Hopefully, everything will be better for the past few days..
If not, there is always food.. alcohol... & clubs...