The end...

U alwis feel happier when u watch the ending of a movie rite..
But i dun think so..
i felt that ending is the worst part in our lives.
im not sure how i feel rite now..
sad?yes...definitely..
depressed? yeaps...
moody? yeaa..
piss? yessss...
So it ends up to different emotions...
I jus found out sumting tat realy hurts me alot.. dam hurt..
as if u r using a knife to cut urself...
painful.. but yet u can erase the hurt from ur heart & brain & memory....
wtf is all tis... i seriously cant believe it..
i nv thought he was tat kind of person...
f*** coward, loser...
im not saying tis cos i wan revenge... im not..
but all im trying to say is tat y is all tis shit happening to me..
i cant stop going to endless party... even though i know it wont do any good to ur bosy or emotion... but i have to..
i have to forget my pain..
my ever lasting pain... the pain is so painful tat i can feel it all the time..
Ending to me is never good... i prefer beginning..
becos beginning is alwis the part of ur life tat everyting goes smoothly...