♀ Kathryn Soo ♥

My birthday !!! ;)

I love 18th of February...
*winks*
Din sleep much the night before..
I slept at about 5 in the morning and wake up at 6 plus in the morning...
Was kinda tired but it's alright cos it's my birthday !!! =)
Had my breakfast and get ready becuase wen's is gona pick me up ..
We going 1u shopping..
=)
She dam celaka wan...
I thought she so nice go shopping with me to buy my pressie..
But it turns out she needs a new top to wear for my dinner things at night -_-
She wana outdone me in my dinner =p
Unfortunately for her she could not find anything she want..
Fortunately for me then.. hehehe
*evil laugh*
Went to Nando's for lunch with Alex and ian...
They ate while i made phone calls =p

Wen and me in Nando's.... 5 years of lovely frenship and still counting =)

She's a super loving gal ... =)
Wen left early and i was there till bout 5...
Reach home and start getting ready =)
I decided to curl my hair myself since my mum don't want to pay for me to go to salon to do it..
The effect was ok but the curls lasted for only maybe half an hour..
Cos i din apply any hair mousse or curl enhance or wax... i find all these goo very sticky..=p So decided to go for curls without enhance ... Lolz....
Reach Nette hse at 6.30 sharp!! c ppl!Im good at time management! i told her i would be her hse at 6.30! and i did !! =) Wait for her to get ready and wait for Kah Choon to pick us up from her hse... He pick us up at 7 and we went to pick Rae... Reach Cristro's late... Sorryy ppl... !! =/
Here are the pics.. =)

Mua and nette.... she's HOT with a capital H =)

Nette, alwis so hot, me( my curls are gone!! =/ ) and the ever loving Joanne...
Luv u guys lotss... thx for alwis be there for me..

Rae( my partner in Crime =D ), Nette, me, Joanne.... =D
My babes... my women... my besties.... my everything =D hehee...

Luv tis pic .... It shows the fun side of us .. teeheee =D

My high school mates...
Emilie(my partner in crime back in form2and 3.Us alwis tell our teacher got emergency so need to go to toilet,which is like every period,every day.heehe), Elaine(my fashionable fren.If i hv clpthes emrgency,she wil be the one i go to!luv her clothes man!! =D), Sherve( one word! HOT!!), ME, and wen( my partner in shopping and of course advice.She had bailed me out from a lot of stuff and i thank her for that!)

Me and Brian.... he's taken... so hands off !!! =p

Jason and me .... a guy that has a big heart =)

Joanne and me... She made everything happens =) thanx 4 everything sweetie ...

Rae and me... This is how you wil look like if u nv get enough slepp.. Red eyes..puffy eyes... =/ im not saying u Rae.. im saying myself !

John or izit Jon? and me ...

A VERY Sociable Guy ;)

Me and Aaron... he used to carry me when i was drunk... =D we used to complain bout y our lives sux ;p

Wai Keong and me... he's a dam nice guy tat is willing to fetch u to anywhere u wan as long as he's free =)

ERm, i think her name is Caryn(i cant remember her name!sori!), Ka Fai, Wai Keong and me ..

Jason, the guy that had alwis give me endless advice, yum char session, helps me with my relationships, my driver ;p.... Looks can b decieving !! =)

Tai Kei... i think that's his name... im not so sure ;p and me =).. Look at Joanne's at the back of him.. Laughing her ass off =p and he's so not ready.. but i look nice in in.. so naturally it will be posted =) Lolz

Kiat Funn and me .... He's such a sweetie.. 'Zhao' his gf like hell !!

me and Kah Choon.. Look at that adorable logo on his shirt... hehe =p

my cake... given by Kah Choon.. =) thanx dear =) hugs

Wen Ni and mua ............. wow wen! im as tall as u ..maybe taller !! heheh =D

Kah Choon, some guy name i cant remember and me ....

me and a guy name that i cant remember =P teehee..... look at elaine and her guy at the back.. so loving ... =)

me and Kah Choon.... =D

I lurvee my flowers... althought it's not huge or anything but i lurveee it...

given by kah choon.... lurvee it.. thanx dearie...

me and mua flowers =)

Half of my pressies ;)

The ring Kah Choon gave.... Lurvee it =)

Chocolates, Aldo bag, Flowers, two rings and a gold bracelet... All given by Kah Choon...

Love my top =)

The Night Before..

I'm so busy with my Monash orientation and also trying to heal my sick...
I fall sick after my birthday..
I had fever, a very painful sore throat and bad cold..
I was walking with a red nose for a few days =/
Thus, the late post ...

On Friday,17th Feb...
I went 1u to meet up with Joey-a dam hot fella, Debbie, Ashley Jane and Adrian..
It was pouring a few mins after i reach 1u...
I thank God for it..
If not, i will be freezing my ass off..
Deb, me and Adrian sat in coffe bean for few hours waiting for our 'watak utama' to come..
And suprise suprise, 'watak utama' always comes late!!!
Later on, Ashley met up with us in Coffee Bean..
After like eternity, Joey finally reached 1u..
He told us to meet up at 1..
And i thought i was late when i reach 1u about 2plus 3..
Mana tau he reach at about 3plus 4..
-_-"
Went to Ms. Read for his lunch since he complain that he's starving..
And the first thing Adrian said to him was, "eh, y today u look like Jay Chou wan?"
hahahaha...
Both Joey and Ashley Jane couldnt finish their food because it was so huge...
We make plans to hang out in Hartmas later on at night..
I left 1u at about 5plus..
Im so hungry at that time and i dont want to waste my money by eating there ;p
Smart huh??
So i went to Curve with my parents and i had 1 of Ikea curry puffs for dinner..Yummy..

Later on at night, i went to Hartamas with Elaine..
She's such an angel for always fetching me..
Thanx babe...
Supposed to meet up with Debbie, Adrian, Ashley, Joey and Sherve..
But as usual they end up coming late..
And i feel so akward becoming Elaine and her guy lamp post..
But they are so lovey-dovey that i dont want to disturb them =)
Took only a few shots of pics...
Lack of time ...

Debbie, Elaine and me.... i think i look really weird in pics... My talent of cam-whoring is OVER!! *GASPS* HORROR!!! -_-"

Deb and me.... taken by Adrian,Deb's guy...

Deb and moi ... taken by Ashley... She has better skills than u Adrian!!! ;P

Deb, me, Ashley(she's dam hot and bubbly =]) The pic is kinda blur.. kononnya a professional photographer huh Adrian? ;p

Adrian, a gal i cant remember her name(sorri), Debbie, me, Joey, Ashley and Liss....
Gona miss Joey lots... he's back in new zealand now... =/

Debbie.... The gal with the humour ... luv ya babe ....

I'm 19 !!!!!!!!!

Woo..hooo..
Im officially 19 today !!!
And im loving it !!!
Like wen said.. im an old cow now !!
;p
I din get much sleep yesterday...
Cant u believe that for the first time ever that i sleep for only half an hour..
and that was from 5.30 am to 6 am...
My eyes are puffy due to the lack of sleep..
Hmm... wonder my M.A.C concealer would do any wonder to my puffy eyes? =)
If not, i can alwis go for a makeover... hehehee
I check Wen's blog just now..
And aawww... she really can make me cry...
With her sweet sweet post for ME !! =)
Such a sweet gal aite?
And she's single rite now.. ;p hehee *winks*

I check my frenster jus now ...
And OMGGG...
Some fella called Lone send me this weird message in frenster...

Message Detail
From:
Lone
Date:
local,Date,TimewithTimezone("February 17, 2006 5:19 PM","timetag1");
Saturday, February 18, 2006 9:19:00 AM
Subject:
Happy Birthday To My Dear Kathryn
Message:
Hi, Today is the special day for you. This day may be lucky day for you. However I am disappointed that I can't celebrate with you because you never give me a chance to. If you really want to invite me to celebrate with you, please sms me @ 012-3918420. Hope that you could see this message ..

I don't even know who the hell is this guy and he message me telling me that if i really want to celebrate with him, i can sms him???!???
ERmm... HELO ????
what's with that ??
That's so freaky man...

Gotto go..need to get ready..
Wen is picking me up..
We going shopping !!!
I loveeeee it !!!
=)
Hugsss

Is it the way it feels to be sad?

A million thoughts swirling through my mind,
tears prickling at the sides ofmy eyes, threatening to roll down my face at any moment,
the heat I felt on my cheeks, turning my whole face red,
the way I bit your lip, to stop the tears from falling,
but they wouldn't stop, I tried to wipe them away with the back of my hand..
but there was no disguising my voice..
I stuttered, and my words came out all mumbled because I were not able to speak them properly with all the hurt that I felt in my heart..
Couldn't hold my tears any longer and the tears came pouring out,
I slumped over leaning against the wall in the corner of my room with my legs to my chest and my arms around them with my head down..
hugging myself because I didn't have anyone else to do it for me..
I choked on my sobs as I tried to stop them, and my body shook.. =(
My head was filled with thoughts that only made me cry harder..

Why is it that I continue to feel betrayed? Helpless? Useless? Why am I being so hard on myself? Is it because I believe that I deserved it anyway?
Cheer up I tell myself..
Im not as useless as I believe myself to be..
I just haven't found it yet..
everyone has a purpose in life..
some find it sooner, and it may take time for others to figure out what their purpose is.

But I continued feeling helpless, useless...
Helpless because i dont know what to do..
Useless because i felt that im doing not enough..

My eyes are so puffy now..
Sighs..
The questions wander in my head for a long time..
I really want to do it
But i don't have the guts..
Im chicken..
I've receive the same advice over and over again..
But im still not taking it..
Not doing it..
Lying myself all over again..
Telling myself that i will be alrite when deep down inside i know it's not going to be alrite..

So go ahead.. call me a chicken for not being brave enough to do it...

Unexpected...

Im feeling rather emo today...
I woke up with a cramp in my arms..
Wrong side of bed
Im currently listening to all the sad, sappy love songs...
Thinking bad all the bad moments that i had...
Thinking all the sad moments i had...

So im gona voice out my emo feeling.. emo thoughts...

Here's the thing..

Imagine that something big is gona happen to you..
You dream of this for your whole life or maybe for few days..
You dream how it's gona turns out..
you dream what's your expression is gona be like..
But suddenly..
Boom...
It doesnt turn out the way u wan...
It turns out the opposite...
It might turns out worse than you can imagine...

You feel so down that your imagination, ur hopes and dreams are crash..
Which leads me to something that one of my galfriends told me last time..
This sentence stuck with me forever..
I will always remember it..

" Must always think the negative side 1st.If you always think the good side of it, then if suddenly the negative side happen, then you very hard to take it."

I found it quite true...
Call me negative or what..
But sometimes i fo0und that if you always think the good side of it, it will comes out the negatively...
But if you think the negative side of it, it iwll coms out positively..

Feeling rather fat today as well..
Put on so much weight..
And im supposed to diet for my birthday this saturday !!!!!!!!!!
Arghhh... F***
I hate being fat...
I hate monash...

2 more days to my birthday !!!!!!!!! =)

V-day ......

Yesterday was v-day..
Call my high school mates but they were going out with their college mates...
My college frens either got class or/and going out at night with their boyfrens =/
So i went on a date with one of my guy frens.. =)
Went for a movie...
I had to go home for dinner as it was my bro last day in Malaysia
Last family dinner =/
I did not go out with Kah Choon yesterday...
The day before v-day, i had a conversatin with him that left me feeling dam 'zha tou'

"where are we going for v-day?"
"Dono.. up to u lar.. where u wana go?but im only free ab bout 8plus or 9 like that k"
-_-"
" u wana go out for dinner or yum cha like that?"
"ok lar.. anything larr... i dun mind"
"so, u wan to go out for dinner anot?or for drink only?"
"anything lar.."
what kind of guy gives this kind of answers??
In the end, i decided i rather watch tv at home than goin out dinner with him..

" Since u anything oso up to me, then you eat at home only larr.. i lazy to see u lar"
" y u so like that? suddenly merajuk."
arghh.... imagine my feelin that time...
" ok-lar.. we go for drinks k?i cum pick u up tmw nite."

So i was halfway watching my sad taiwanese shop, he came..
Celaka.. my show havent finish lar =P
We went out to yum cha with few of his frens and their gfs..
Wanted to cam-whore...
But his frens and the gfs all dun wan..
All so freaking shy or isit lan si??
My eyes r red when he pick me up..
Effect of crying ..
The show too sad lar... =(

The flowers he gave me... Don't focus the mis-shape heart at the corner.. i was trying to do some effect on the pic and it don't turn out nice.. and unfortunately i press save instead of save as... =/

Another pic of my flowers.. i love it.. eventhough it's not huge or anything.. i love it because he gets it for me... =)

The card he gave..... It has music when u open it... tee heee ... hahaa ;P But the music is those sad music... =/ isnt v-day supposed to have some nice music? =/
Even though he did not do much for me for v-day, i appreciate all the stuff he gave me.. he's a nice person.. excluding all his bad habbit...
Happy V-day everyone !!!!!!!!
May everyone has a greatest v-day ... =)
XoXo =)

I Hate Monash !!!!!!!!!!!!!

I jus check my timetable and guess what..
i got classes every single day...
How "lucky" i am !!!!! *sarcastic*
i got classes at friday as well..
WTF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and it's only for 1 hour..
the class starts at 9am..
Imagine the horror !!!!!!!!!!!!!
waking up so early and only be there for one hour..
the worst part, all my frens don't have classes on fri !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck monash !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Depressed..

V-day is just around the corner...
or should i say tomorrow?
Im getting depressed..
Im making plans...
Im trying to call my frens..
They either going out with their friends for drinks or dinner or they are going out with their bfs
I ask my boyfren just now what are we gona do tomorrow..
He answer me by saying anything la..
Tomorrow only see how lar -_-
Ooo-kayyyy..............
And i just log in to monash ..
Celaka... kenot check my timetable..
Im so nervous on how my timetable is gona turn out..
Shit dei...
Dam scared i dont have any classes with my frens..
im shy larr...

Something that's so out of topic..
But i saw someone that used to be in CPU( i dun1 2 menntion his name) yesterday in Curve...
And i just realized that i got tiny crush on him..
And i even had a dream bout him..
Shit..
Guilty...
*shy*
hehehe...

Im feeling depressed today...
i cant check my timetable..
Im feeling fatter..
I got no plans for v-day tmw..
Life....

On a happy thought, 5 more days to my birthday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.................
Pressie.. pressie..
=)

Just a random post

Today is the last day of chinese new year........
I indulge myself by eating cookies..
Starting from tomorrow i will start my dieting plan !!! =)
1 week diet plan..
Just in time for my birthday ;)
which is 6 days away !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
woo hooooooo
im happy !!!!!!!!!!!
*jumps around with joy*

was in 1u just now, & everywhere i saw valentine's stuff..
Flowers, bears...
Guys giving their girlfriends flowers, teddy bears..
I don't expect flowers or choc for v-day
but sometimes i envy them..
Those gals that their boyfrens are willing to spend their sun with them shopping or just window-shopping...
My guy would rather sleep than going window-shopping with me !!!!
To me having a boyfren is so that he's able to teman you window-shopping or be there for u..
But mine doesnt.........
*sigh*

I envy those that always able to go out with the boyfrens..
I envy those that their boyfrens will listen to the galfren whine about their probs eventho the guy know that they cant do much to help..
I envy those that their boyfrens always be there for them... mentally..

I have a boyfren but yet i don't have all the things that all boyfrens did for their galfrens..

Im such a bitch for complaining..
But what the hell..

Maybe im not good enough eh?

My Birthday Wish List =)

Im stuck in Genting....
My dad got a meeting with his partners..
My mum & bro are in casino..
So im blogging in my hotel room with my bro's laptop...

7 more days to my birthday !!!!!
Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!
*dance around in the room*

Just now i so subtly msg wen, askin her what she's getting me for birthday ;)
hahaa.. we alwis ask each other what we wan for our birthday..
So in the end, we go home happy =)
I ask her to check out my blog which i will post my birthday wish list..

So ladies and gentlemen....
*drums rolls*

My Birthday List =)
1. Guess watch. i don't think the one in the pic below is available ere, the valentine's collection watch.. they sold separate for the gals' one... and oso the pink one below ;)

2. Guess bag.. any will do but i prefer the one below and a denim one ;) hehe

3. A top from Guess... A normal baby tee... dam cute.. with the slogan guess girl on the front =)
4. Jeans.. Jeans...
5. Accessory...
6. Books ;) yupss... i love books...

See, wen.. reasonable right =))) rite ???
Oh, no soft toys... The soft toys in my room are taking over my bed..
soon, i have to sleep on the floor instead of on the bed ;p

Oh... this is just a random post..
It's not like threatening anyone ya...

I eat meat !!!!!!!!!!!

My dad got some company dinner tonite...
My bro got steamboat dinner with his frens..
My mum want to go to her fren's hse for dinner...
So i plan my own dinner as well =)
Call most of my frens...
Everyone has their own plans =/
Joanne got church...
So i decided to find kah choon for dinner..
After so long neglecting him... it's time to take him out =P
Went 1u to check out some valentine's day gifts..
Wana buy something for my babes and of cos him..
Nothing that i really like..
His sister pick me up from 1u...
Went back to his house...
wait for him to finish work..
After he had showered, i thought we were going out for dinner but..
it turns out that we are eating at home with his family !!!
It was so akward...
The dad keep asking me questions..
Like why i like kah choon..
What i see in him when i could choose someone better..
Plus the mom force me to eat chicken...
Which means that i put on weight !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate meat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p/s: my bday is coming !!! lalalalala

Countdown.......

Im counting down to my birthday .........
Yupss...
8 more days to my birthday...
im happy...
im getting one year older..
im happy..
i cant wait for the pressies..

*hint* *hint*
hahahaha

Drinks..

We were supposed to sent Nessa off yesterday..
but we couldnt make it..
aaa.. well..
we decided to go for a drink in Hartamas...
I found another drink tat i like better than Pina Colada..
which is.....
Sex on the beach..
yupss.. it will be my fav drink till i find another wann..
=)
Later, went to Breakers for awhile with Wen..
I lost to wen in foosball
=(
Which is predicted..
i sux in playin foos..
But im sure i can bet her in pool
=P
And now i got rashes on my body..
my body itch like hell..
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....................helppppppppppppppppppppp
anyone got any medicine???
or cream tat can used????????

Nessa's Farewell Dinner...

Jo, Me and Netter decided to have a farewell dinner for nessa in Soul-ed Out yesterday...
But instead of having dinner, we end up eating supper instead...
The reason?
our transportation got screw up...
Plus Jo&me are so piss at 'certain people' ...
Spoilt our plans !!! wtf ...
Nette and i were waiting in her hse for 2 hours plus...
Imagine the waiting...
The clock ticking..
Aaa.. well.. it's already past...
I had mushroom soup.. yummm .. =)
And had pina colada and strawberry daiquiri ... yummm... my fav drinks =)
Brian ask me to order tequilla instead ... ;p
He wans to get me drunk .. hahaha ;p
One of the waiter in Soul-ed Out is cute =)
So my type... hahaa
but Jo say he looks weird -_-
Arvin and Sze( i think his name is spelt tis way ;p ) came after our dinner....
They join us for a drink ...
Arvin made Nessa laugh so loud till i think everyone was staring at our table...
Ooo... i teach Nette how to eat a french fries seducingly =p
Thoes that watched this Singaporean show called, The Chicken Rice War would know what am i talking about =p
Here's the steps to eat fries..
1st: U take the fries, i piece at a time! and blow it...
2nd: U suck the fries ...
3rd: u eat it slowly ...

P/s: Small kid should not tried it ... hahaha =p

Here are some of the pics... Some of it is in Netter's cam...

Nette, Balvin, Jo, me, Nessa...

Jo the gal tat alwis there for me, the ever loving Netter with her laugh and mua...

This is one hell funny pics.... Look at the Nette...
Nette, u r covering my face!!!!!!! =p

The whole group.. Mixture of people that's working right now(Kin,Brian), waiting to leave(Bal,Nessa), wating to class to start(me,Nette,Jo.Sze,ARvin)...

me and nessa.. she's leaving us this wed.. =( Think of the bright side.. she can get to know all the hot guys there and then intro to me next year when i wil b in melbourne as well.. Not forgetting Arvin and Sze tat's gona be there as well... =)

Sze Yuen's Farewell Party/Open House...

I went to Sze's farewell party/ open hse yeaterday...
Before that, i was in my mum's fren hse...
She drag me along so my dad would not nag her for goin to her fren hse to play mahjong..
She was playing mhajong while i was playing with the dog..
My mum's fren, daughter, Sue Ann brought back a dog from Aussie...
The cost to ship the dog back is approximately bout RM10,000..
Her family is super rich larr..
So not a problem to them..
Her dog named is Doghnut.. so in short they called her Nut Nut... ;)
The dog is a princess... Seriously..
She act like one..
Whenever Sue Ann scolded her for not listening to her, she will merajuk and hide in the corner..
She wont even go near Sue Ann when she call the dog...
Until Sue Ann must go to the dog and give her a kiss or pat.. =)
So adorable...
As usual in Sze's hse.. we eat... gamble.. drink... eat... gamble.. gossips..
The guys gamble.. the girls eat& gossips...
Han Ming dare me to drink whiskey and he would pay me RM5..
Ewww.. i hate whiskey...
Here are the pics...

Su Vyen and Oi Yee are busy laughing at something funny =)

The guys busy eating ....

me, Oi yee, Vern may and Su Vyen... i think i look really fat ere... arghhh..

Part of the gals ... =) Im the only wan with so light brown hair... im so prouddddd =) haha

The gals plus Sze ... the gal tat's gona leave us !!! =(

Wai Hou and me... I look dam sweaty here... =p

Wai Hou, Oi Yee, Vern May, Su Vyen, Marilee ...

Marilee and me .... I think i look dam weird in all the pics ... too much of chinese new year cookies =/

Oi Yee busy looking at the pics.. Su Vyen busy talking.. & Marilee is looking at the new visitor that jus enter Sze's hse =p

The guys and Shwu Ching playing mahjong ...

me, Sheng Joule, marilee...

Su Vyen, Marilee, Me, Sze Yuen & Heng Joon at the back =)

me,Su Vyen, Vern May, Sze Yuen, Oi Yee............

Sze Yuen and me ..... *hugs*

Gambling.. gambling ....

Oi Yee and me ....

Oi Yee's bracelet .. hahaha

Su Vyen adn Gan ... Super loving ;) Look at mango at the side of Gan... Laughing his ass off .. =p

The Rest of the days...

Went for more visiting on tues,wed,thurs&fri... !!!
I went to Nette's hse today with Joanne & Brian...
Her hse is super nice... yupss.... i shall take pics of her hse tmw & post it up =)
We gossip, bitching bout ppl ... =)
Went to Curve after that ....
Brian treat Joanne like a princess!!!
Seriously.. her secret?
Alwis keep another guy on hand..
So if ur bf cant teman u, call a nother good guy fren of urs... =)
hahaa..
Gona be so busy starting tmw..
Hopefully i wil be able to update my blog.. =)
Goin to Soul-ed out tmw.. Then gona rush to Sze's open hse...
The next day goin Chew Ling's open hse...
Mon gona watch movie wif Jo..
Tues goin day trip to Genting..
Wed: got some course advice tingy that's complusory for monash students... & sendin Nessa off at nite... Tears !!!
Thurs: goin Pangkor & Lumut..
Fri:Alice bday party...
Sat: Fren's booking Passion for his farewell tingy...
Sun: MIGHT be goin out wif Kah Choon..
Which makes me wonder how my dark circles & eye bags come from..
Now i know y.. LAck of sleepp... =(

Second Day Of CNY...

Woke up bout 9plus today...
Cos i remember that Jo & Brian r coming over to my hse...
Ate a so much cookies for breakfast while watching tv..
Kah Choon sis msg me.. telling me he couldnt find Kah Choon..
He's missing in action again...
She asked me for help..
Keep called him till finally he pick up his freaking phone...
Talk to him for quite some time & while making plans for that day, Jo suddenly called me..
Telling me she's on her way.. She's in Kelana Jaya there...
Im still in her pyjamas !!!!
I broke my record that day by getting ready in 20mins..including taking a shower& talking on the phone while bathing =)
Went to Kah Choon's grandparents hse... Collected more ang paus from his relative than him..
He was jealous eventho he said he's not =D hahaha.... Im happy !!! One his relative just gave birth to a baby girl named, Joey... She's so cute.... rosy cheeks, clear big eyes...
So adorabbleee... feel like getting one ... hahaha ;p

I cam-whore on the way to his grandparents hse.. =) hehee *shy*

Taking a pic of kah Choon... He's driving... He wouldnt let me drive his precious car !!!!!!!! Eventho i said a million times that im good in driving.. my driving skills has improved !! it's jus that i don't know how to park that good yet... ;p

Us goofing around... Nothing to do while waiting for the light to turn green.. Hmmm.. come to think bout it.. I force him to take pic.. but he was making me laugh so hard i end up like this..

Look at our goofy smile =D
Went home for dinner at bout 6plus... & he went to his grandparents hse for dinner...

I'm Back !!!

Well, technically... Im in KL all the time... Im just too lazy to blog...
Here goes my events for the past few days since Chinese New Year start..

Chinese New Year Eve, Saturday..
Went out yum char with Elaine in Hartamsa... Supposed to meet up with Kah Choon after his reunion dinner but couldnt get him.. Was so Dam Piss... Yes!! ask elaine if u dun believe... Guess what time was my reunion dinner !! 5.45pm.. =) hehee.. So finish eating bout 6plus... Went to Breakers to meet up wif Laine's frens.. Thn, we move on to Starbucks, Centerpoint.. Went home bout 10plus...

1st Day Of Chinese New Year,Sunday,29 January 2006...
Woke up early... at bout 9plus to pray.. Went to the temple in Brickfield(spelling?) My mood wasnt that good... Yes, im supposed to be happy... Maybe the lack of sleep.. Went over to my uncle's hse as my grandmum is stayin there..Collected some ang paus.. Drank some fizzy drinks.. Fizzy drinks=7 teaspoons of sugar!! =( Went to Elaine's hse. I been in her hse every 1st day of CNY =) Im a regular visitor !! =D I din really used my cam much.. So i grab all the pics from Laine's blog, which is much more nicer with the words on the pic.. I cant do tat! cos im not sure how ... =p

The Viatnemese Spring Rolls that Elaine's mum made!! super-yummy.. I LOve it !!!! I love the sauce... Eventhough Wai Hou cant stand the sauce.. too sour.. His words ;p

Wai Hou... Super poser...

Elaine the hot chiq, me & her college fren, debbie...

One hell funny dude... He was so afraid of the snoop something Wai Hou mention..haha..Everyting he tried to tickle Elaine, Wai Hou will mention bout the snoop ting..& he will b doin his funny ways... The above captions is Elaine's own words.. Not forging.. Just duno how to make it go away.. hahaha .. Lousy wif photoshop tingy... =p

I envy Elaine's collection of bags!!!! -_- So babe, when wana hand me all ur bags ?? =p Look, there's half of my head.. Don't my hair look shiny?? just did treatment the day before CNY !! =) hehee

Look at the cute lil puppy... She's dam cute.. So adorable.. Focus on that puppy.. not that guy!! =P She's so adorable wif a big A !! & whenever Keith carry her up, she will cross her leg... such a shy adorable puppy... loving it !!! =) awwww.. missing that cute puppy ... =)

Caught in action by Elaine.. hahaa.. busy msging ppl... Look at the pink ting on her bed.. tat's my another hp.. My frens get annoy by my msging habbit !! =p Oh Btw, take a look at the pic behind me.. the leg tingy.. Wat's the first ting tat cums into ur mind when u look at tat pic?? Leave a comment.. Wai hou thinks that it's a girl standing in front of her clset naked.. Arif thinks that she's doin her shopping.. naked as well.. So wat do u think? *ngeks*

Yups.. that caption is right.. im her regular visitor durin Cny ... U can find me in her hse every 1st day of CNY without fail.. =) i love the food in her hse !!! =) hehee...
Went back home at bout 8plus.. Then went to NianKing REstaurant in ss17.. a vegetarian restaurant.. Saw Wai Hou there... The foods there r super nice.. but im too full to consume anyting.. basically jus sit there & drank my chinese tea...

Dreams..

Sometimes when things fall apart.. U pray to God that everything will be alright again..
You pray so hard.. Hoping that God will hear your prayers...
And when things may seem brighter..
You feel a bit tad happier...
Then sudenly.. BOOM !!!
Things fall apart again... again & again..
It happens so frequently that you might think that all the good stuff, which is not much i might add are all dreams..
You only feel the happiness of it when you are sound asleep..
But once you wake up, it's all gone..
Don't you feel this way at times?
Not only in relationship but in other parts of your life as well..
There are times that we blame God...
We blame our fate..
That why all the good stuff comes so little but the bad stuff comes in boxes..
Millions of boxes heading your way..
You cant escaped from it..
A million boxes become your burden..
You had to carry this burden all your life..
sighs...

This happens to me !!
I felt that everything good happens to me are all dreams..
A dream that i will soon wake up..
And once im awake.. it will all disappear..
Vanish into thin air..
And back to my old freaking pathetic, miserable life...
With millions of probs !!
Sigh..
Tears...

Happy Chinese New Year!!

Happy Chinese new Year !!!!!

Non-stop tears...

Today is Chinese New Year Eve...
But i jus cried non-stop jus now..
Yes.. i did..
Pathetic? i know..
But i cant help it..
Y must he do that to me?Even on CNY eve...
As im blogging this, my tears r coming out from my eyes..
My eyes r blurry thanx to all the tears..
I keep call him.. But no one pick up..
I just duno what to do..
What bout all our plans?
Izit gona cancel??
Sometimes i really duno y all this shit happens to me..
Seriously... i try so hard to be a better person..
But...
I cant stop crying ...
Is just too painful..
Seriously...
Some may think that it's ridiculous to feel this way or that i act like this..
But i cant help it..
I really cant..
I jus hope all this will be ok today...

Anniversary !!!

Yeaps... today is my anniversary with ermm Kah Choon.. hahaa
Guess how long !!! 1 year and 7 months !!! =)
Eventhough today is our anniversary, we still fight...
Arghh !! Stupid bastard !!!
Alwis pick a fight with me!!!
Din even go out with me today..
Cos his shop got some annual dinner ..duno wat larr...
Din even msg me !!!
& he's planning to get super drunk tonight !!!
Stupid bastard..
Asshole...
Fat pig !!!
Arghh !!!

Lee Kah Choon is a stupid bastard, an asshole and a FAT FAT PIG!!
AN UGLY PIG to be exact !!!!!
Stupid fat pig !!!
U better tham me back tonight, asshole!!

*phew.. i feel abit better! abit only!! *=p

Window Shopping

Met up with Sherve and Wen yesterday in 1u.. It's been awhile since i last meet up with them.. I thought i was late when i reach 1u bout 1.55pm.. Give Sherve a call & she's even later than me !! hahaa .. aaa well, im used to waiting for ppl anyway.. Wen is always late when we used to go out last time.. ;P Supposed to window shopping only but in the end bought this lovely card in memory lane and 2 basic tees... =) & im broke right now ... We took a number of pics but it's all inside sherve's cam.. will post it when sherve send it to me !! Then u guys can stare at my two beautiful good frens.. =))

Late Nights

Had too many late nights..
When i meet up with some of my college friends that i havent see for ages, they ask me,
"U not enough sleep ar? y ur bags so teruk wan?"
-_-
Sighs.. this shows how 'early' i sleep everyday..
If im not out drinkin, then i will be on the phone for hours till the wee hours..
Also, lately i had been drinking so much that i got belly..
yes !! beer belly..
Even Jason Lee said so.. he said it indirectly..
"San, u been drinking a lot izit?? "
"Erm.. y?"
"Nth larr.. jus asking.. U like fatter abit dy"
WAT?????

Need to do more exercise dy.. seriously...
If not, my stomach will be as round as Kah Choon's stomach... hahaha
LolZ ...

It's hard to say goodbye

Everyone seems to be leaving..
& im stuck here.. supposed to leave this year for melbourne..
But sighs.. make my decisions to late.. so had to stay here another year !!

rae&alexiss!! u will be seeing me more!! hahaa..i wil stil bug u for another year!!

Nessa is leaving on Feb8.. She's going RMIT in Melbourne... gona miss the crazy side of her..
Balvin is leaving as well.. She's going to Canada...
Shoba is leaving on Feb.. She's going Melbourne Uni... *woo hoo* Congrats !!!
Pang is leaving.. He's waiting for his uni application.. But he's definitely going overseas..
Jo wana go Singapore to studies... *sighs*

I know life's go on.. & everyone will leave to pursue their career or further theri studies..
But sometimes it's hard to bid goodbye to them..
They are part of you.. Part of your memories..
Without the memories, you wont even be who you are right now..

The best part ? most of my friends are in Melbourne..
So i will definitely see them there !!!!
*grins widely*

My weekend ...

My agenda last weekend..
Friday:
Went shopping in the morning again =)
Came back in the afternoon and decided to pack my wardrobe!! =)
I only managed to pack some of it.. like 2 part of my whole wardrobe...Tired-lar..
Sumore so dusty.. make me keep sneeze..
At night went swimming in my fren's condominium in Kelana Jaya.. I love swimming at night.. Cos then i wont get tan =p i can stil swim and keep my fair skin tone =) & the best part? i can swim for hours without worrying the sun will damage my skin =)

Saturday:
Woke up at 7plus in the morning.. Had to go Ipoh,my hometown.. *sighs*
But managed to buy 3 pair of skirts & few tops in Ipoh ... =)
Hahaa.. OMG!! i jus realized that i been spending a lot.. & my new years resolutions was to spend wisely.. ahh well.. chinese new year clothes !! =)
I only came back from Ipoh at bout 10 plus at nite...
I miss my fren's farewell party =(
Well, anyway, Shoba all the best in Melbourne Uni ya !! I will be goin to Melbourne soon..Not melb uni larr.. not smart enough to enter =/

Sunday:
Another early start.. woke up at bout 8.. Wake Kah Choon up. Remind him to fetch me.. He pick me up at about 11plus .. Went to his hse and ate up most of the cny cookies =) haha.. which is why i put on a lot of weight =( Decided to relax my hair cos i cant stand the kembang-ness of my hair anymore!! Went to curve flea market after eating all the cookies =) bought so many accessories =) Next stop? Mont Kiara flea market .. =) But before that, went to Ming Tien to pick Jason up.. 'Kacau' only.. waste my time.. We made a quick stop in Hartamas.. Check out Cat's whiskers and all the F&B outlets =) Saw this Thai restaurant that looks yummy.. hmm.. maybe i will celebrate my bday dere? Reach Mont Kiara bout 5plus.. All the stalls r preparing to close up =( Found the stall Joanne working.. She force me to buy cellotape that costs RM11.90 ... I dun need a cellotape that has musical notes on it but wat the heck lar.. ohhh.. bought bracelets that i love it so much.. I pity Jason& Kah Choon.. Following me.. helping me carry my bag and the tings i purchased.. hahaa =) Went ss2 for dinner.. Had tom yum mihun .. yummm I love the spicy taste.. Met Dennis dere.. When he saw my tom yum mihun, he was like, "wah, very hot wan u knw. U cant tahan anot" hahaha ... For the bowl of mee, i drank 3 cups of soya bean ;P Went to 1u to shop 4awhile after we had our dinner.. I got diarrhoe the same nite i had my tom yum mihun.. hmmm, wil the cause of it came frm the mihun ???

Tagged??

I stumble into someone's blog and since im kinda bored..
I guess i wana do tis tag tingy .. =D
I love doing surveys, quizzes etc etc anyway.. ;)
Well, here goes..............

12 years ago i was...
Im 7 years old tat time..Hmm, let me recall back.. Hmm.. I was Standard 1 in Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Damansara Jaya ( SRKDJ) ! I cant remember who was my first fren.. But if im not mistaken it was either Kelly Khoo or Chia Su Vyen.. Either one of them.. Blamed it on my bad memory ;p At that time, i was feeling excited to start school.. My mummy was there on my first day.. yea, yea.. i know wat u guys thinking.. but i was still small larr.. It was a pretty scary sights.. So many unfamiliar faces, unfamiliar surroundings... Saw so many students crying.. It makes me wana cry as well.. What do you know? im emotional even when im young .. *tsk* *tsk* hehee

7 years ago i was....
A senior in a primary school in SRKDJ .. I was a prefect at tat time =) yups.. u heard me.. Kathryn?? Prefect ?? U goota be joking ... nope.. cos u know why? i can go for early breaks & skip classes.. So there.. U know why i become a prefect .. ahhaa.. *shhh* =) Being prefect was AWeesOOMee.. But the downside? have to go to prefect camps.. Yes.. Hv to jungle trekking.. cross the river.. etc etc.. something like ns but beta.. cos it's only 3days 2 nite.. & we get to use our hps.. but i doubt any1 at tat time, tat age will have one.. I was missing home like mad at tat time.. Being away from my smelly pillow was a nightmare.. & after the 3 days 2 nite experience.? my legs & arms are full with bruises.. yes.. from all the scrateches i get from all the tree branches.. OMG !! nightmare... *sighs* but it was a good experience.. cos there wont be any other time tat i will go camping again! after all the horror stories Adrian told me about .. [ i shall tell you all about the horror stories next time ;) ] hahaa

2 years ago i was...
studyin in SMKDJ ... in sub science class... Hmm.. I love 5 Kempas.. Not to brag or anyting.. but 5 Kempas rox.. =) i love every1 of them.. Let me see.. Sherve & Idzham was the center of attention.. Alwis being lovey-dovey in class.. hahaa.. Thn, come the next lovey-dovey couple..
Hua Chuin& Wen Ni.. Imagine sitting next to them.. The 1st couple was sitting in front of me & another was sitting beside me.. I still remember a certain teacher ( name should be kept secret ;p ) tat Wai Hou alwis 'kek' her.. There was once that WH told the teacher, she was a maths teacher, that the sums she did was wrong.. in front of the whole class.. Being the cheeky us, we laugh silently but it was obvious from our face tat we were laughing..& she smell !! yea.. no offense... but... Thn, there's Elaine.. I alwis go to her for gossips, clubs.. & girly gossips.. Sherve & wen will joined in when they r not too busy wif their bfs *ngeks* hahaa .. There was a certain rumour that our class,5 Kempas was the noisiest class in the whole form 5 classes.. hahaa.. Basically, when any1 mention 5 Kempas, thn they will think of oMG! NOISE!! I miss every single of 5 Kempas-ian ...

Yesterday I was....
out shopping with Joanne.. bought so many tops & bags.. Bought a gold bag for seriously a great bargain.. love it so muchhh... Gossipping bout ppl & i realized tat every1 is leaving.. most of my college frens r leaving.. *sob* *sob* sighss..

5 songs I know All The Words to...
Stick With You-pussycat dolls
Confession of a broken heart- Lindsay Lohan
Since you been gone-Kelly Clarkson
The Reason-Hoobastank
Twinkle Twinkle little star =p

5 Favourite toys...
My phones =) yup.. it's not singular.it's plural =p
My camera ... ;)
My pig soft toy.. so piggy.. =)
PS2 =) im addicted to it now.thanx to joanne!! hehe
My disco ball a.k.a the disco ball tat a hamster had in a cage .. hahaha =p

5 fictional character i would date...
Chad Micheal Murray
Edison Chen.. yummmy ... hahaa
Stephen (in Laguna Beach) =)
Jay Chou ??
Shawn Yue ;)

5 people i tag...
wen ni !!!! hahaha
Sherve !!!!! ;p
Elaine !!!!
Rae!! ( i knw u r reading tis!)
you !!

All about me...

Today it will be all about me..
I went for my hair appointment at Peek-a-Boo..
I decided to change my look by.......
*drum rolls*
Curling my hair...
=)
It was ok i guess..
I duno... i kinda think i look weird..
but the stylist said, " u jus curl, tat's y it's like tat. Let it b a few days then the curl wil b more natural."
I guess i should believe her rite..
I duno whether i can stand my curls till erm CNY?
hahaha...
Jason it's nice..
my mum said it's ok lar..
my bro, ermm... (giving me that look)
Anyway, i went for spa after i did my hair..
It's in one of the hotel in KL..
It's dam relaxing...
I feel like im in heaven... *rolls eyes*
seriously... & oh oh...
the person tat massage for me is a guy..
Because that spa tingy is not a local kind of spa, it's an international kind of ting..
Which is y they have guys that work there as well..
A cute guy..
Ur tall,dark handsome kind of guy..
& get this..
He's not local..
He's from Italy...
Ohhh.. italian is damm hot dey..
=)
Im so lucky..
Really feels like im in heaven... =)
I jus love being pampered..
don cha?
=)
I love being me..
I love being a gal..
=)

Refreshed....

Had a long talk wif Jason yesterday nite...
We spent the whole nite talking to each other...
Gosh... it's been awhile since i last talk Jason and had a mindless conversation wif him..
Hmm.. if im not mistaken we talk to each other from 1plus in the morning till 6plus in the morning.. =p
He called me til his credit finish then i called him back till my credit gona finish but havent finish ..hahaa...
I feel better after talking to him..
Eventho my prob is stil there & im still clueless on wat i am gona do about it...
Sighs..
I jus realized something..
Me& Jason always have the same prob...
And both of us will have heartbreak at the same time..
Sighss...
We spent the nite complaining that we can help our frens in their relationship but we can't help ourselves... =/
He is like so into karma stuff more than me..
OMG !!..
It's like everyting i said, he wil be like dun do that lar.. later got balasan wan arr..
not good for karma..
I was like OHHH--KAYYY...
In the end of our talk, i had decided..
I had find a solution..
But im not sure whether it's the rite thing to do anot..
Some said no.. Some said yes..
But i learn not to listen to wat other people said & do wat i really wan..
& i really wana do that..
But fear is inside me rite now..
What if..
Yea.. the IF thing again..
Im not sure whether i make the rite decision anot..
I hope that for the 1st time ever, my decision is the rite decision..

*pray hard to God now*

What A Way To Start A Brand new day...

I woke up with puffy eyes and with a terrible bags and dark circles under my eyes..
Had a terrible stomach pain... Like gastric but i don't think it is consider the amount of food I had consumed...
& it wasnt my period either..
=(
Was trying to sleep and when i finally able to doze off my phone rang..
The tone was, What's ur flave by Craig David.
I tot it was from him...
But it turn out it was Adrian..
Disappointed written on my face and it shows on my voice as well..
aaa..welll...
And i found out tat the stomach pain i was having is not gastric nor period.
It's the effect of vomiting the whole nite..
Adrain said it was the acid duno wat tat effect ur stomach..
Something like tat -lar.. wasn't really listening anyway...
The bad news? it will go on for days.. =(
It's true tat fri 13th is an unlucky day..
I got puffy eyes from crying too much yesterday..
I slept with my makeup on.. which explain why my bags and dark circles are getting worse..
& to make matter worse my hair stink of ciggarettes and god knows what..
The good news?
Im going to salon to watch my hair.. =)
I hate starting a day with puffy eyes...
But it seems that i had puffy eyes every morning..
So i guess it shouln'dt make a difference..
I dun really care how i look now anyway..
I eat eventhough i feel dam full..
Im to lazy to exercise..
All im seem to be doing is going out and drinking ..
& to make matter worse, im crying every single moment..
I cried while watching comedy movie..
I cried while eating..
I cried while im reading magazine..
Pathetic? yea.. i know..
& i havent gotten around to talk to Jason yet..
Kinda no mood to call him..
I don't bother calling anyone to talk to..

Oh.. i jus changed my frenster password..
ps: wen, how you know it;s my 3rd acc?? hmm...

Espanda

Due to all the frigging things that had happen...
I decided to let myself have a lil fun ;p
I went Espanda last nite.. im saving Ghetto for Sherve,wen & elaine & oso Jason..
hahaa..
So decided to went Espand with my long lost galfrens.. haha
It's been so long since i last saw them ...
Decided to meet up with themm..
supposed to go yum char only but in the end all of us decided to go clubbing..
The reason: So long never go clubbing dy lar ..haha
Bought this really cute baby doll top in XOXO but the right occasion has not pop in..
& finally i get to wear my brand new top =)
It's pink in color in case all of u all r wondering... =P
They picked me up at about 10 plus...
I specifically ask them to pick me last so i get more time to do my makeup & stuff like that..
But being so "nice", they picked me up after they picked Jessie..
And all Jessie did was, "we gona reach ur hse in 5mins"
I was like, "huh? Im not ready! i tot u guys pick me up last.."
" i don't care..Faster... 5 mins arr..no need to dress so nice wan lar..later u hog our limelight arr"
yyeaa..yeaaa.. wuteva... =(
So being me, i did my makeup in less than 5mins..
Pheww... .. =)
Oh... i forget to bring my camera... =/
*sob*
But fortunately Jessie remember hers...
Now all i had to do is bug her to send to me =)
Espanda was pretty packed..
Couldn't really remember the whole event ...
But the only thing i remember is tat i vomited on a guy's shoes...
Oppss....sorrrii
& the worst part, the guy is Jessie fren and he's kinda cute..
with boyish smile & check out his eyes...
He got that puupy dog eyes that make you melt.. hehehe
Oh.. his name is Josh Lee.. =)
OMG !! I jus realized another ermm Lee guy ??
I don't know what's up with me & Lee guys ???
*sighs*
I hate hangovers!! ...
Having another hangover !! =/
& i swore to myself tat i will never drink again?!?
jus one last time for tonite...
Zouk tonite...
=)
Got vip invite worr...
of cos must go larr ritee..
*ngeks*
My last time going clubbing..!!
I promise!!
Unless it's someone's bday or special occasion =)

=)

Im gona bring out my hooker heels tonight !!!
Cheers!!!
Lolz ....
Hahaaaa...
To elaine,sherve&wen...
Im counting down to the days that you guys gona bring out your hooker heels & dance the nite away with me...
Next thurs ya???
I will post pics jus for u sherve..
Since u wana see my ugly pics... hahahaa

My Friendster had been hacked!!

Erm.. is that too dramatic?
Well, i think someone had been using my friendster account to erm, i duno.. do stuff???
Im not sure which account..
Sorrii... i know i had too many account...
but it means i can upload more pics!!
Hmmm.. i think i need to change my password..
I din't know that my password is so easily err..revealed?
Oh maybe i told people myself when im drunk ???
OMG ...
The effects of alcohol ...

Love Stories..

I read someone's (name should be annoymous) blog recently about you write your own love stories...
And it keep me thinking that yea, there is some sense about that sentence..
But in our real world, how many people actually has the chance to write your own love stories..
Don't get me wrong.. im not saying that you cant get a partner or something like that..
I'm just saying that the chances of writing it is like maybe 40% ??
It is not easy to write your own love stories, the beginning of your life, the ending of your life..
If it's so easy to write your own stories..
Then why do alcohol, drugs & ciggs exist?
Why do pubs, clubs exist?
It is to drown your sorrow !!
Yea, i know im negative ...
How i wish that i can write my own love story ..
How everyone wish that they could write their own love story but if life is so f*** easy then it is not life..
It is fantasy..
Life is not easy...
Yes, it's not..
You can only write your own love stories if both partners participate in it..
If you r the one that care about it, then wat kind of frigging love stories is that??
Fantasy?

Foolish Games..

I think that there are times that God is unfair..
I know im being so disgraceful for staying that..
Some of you might think that if God is unfair, then you wont even be so perfect in sense that you dun have broken legs or arms etc etc..
Yes, i know.. i really am sorry for saying that..
So i guess i should just blame myself for being so stupid... with a capital S
I want to blame on fate.. but my bro said something that makes me think..
"Fate lies in your own hand. It is up to you to grab it. You think by reading feng shui book you can do any big drastic change meh."

and yea i guess.. i used to think that feng shui can change my life.. but i don't think so..
i read the feng shui books about what to expect each month..
But guess what..it is not accurate..
it does not happen what it say will happen..
Come to think of it.. it is always the opposite of what the book state that is gona happen..
I really don't know what am i feeling right now..
What's with all this foolish games that you are doin to me?
You are leaving me undecided.. i don't know what is wrong with you !!
I never regret what i do everyday..
I never regret the changes i had made..
I never regret every single thing that we did..
But what's with all this foolish game..
all these games are really tearing me apart..
breaking me into pieces..
I duno whether should i still linger around?
Should i still stick with you ?
Give me an answer..

A super super long post...

I was feeling kinda down 2day.. So i read tis really touching book again.. i read it more than 3 times i think .. And there's one part that kinda reflect what i feels right now...

Holy was walking through an entire field of pretty tiger lillies; the wind was blowing gently, causing the silly petals to tickle the tips of her fingers as she pushed through the long strands of bright green grass. The ground felt soft and bouncy beneath her bare feet, and her body felt so light she almost seemed to be floating just above the surface of the spongy earth. All around her birds whistled their happy tune as they went about their business. The sun was so bright in the cloudless sky she had to shield her eyes, and with each brush of wind that passed her face, the sweet scent of the tiger lilies filled her nostrils. She felt so... happy, so free. A feeling that was alien to her her these days.
Suddenly, the sky darkened as her Carribean sun disappeared behind a looming gray cloud. The wind picked up and the air chilled. Around her all the petals of her tiger lilies were racing through the air wildly, blurring her vision. The once spongy ground was replaced with sharp-pebbled stones that cut and scraped her feet with every step. The birds had stopped singing and instead perched on their branches and stared. Something was wrong. Ahead of her in the distance a gray stone was visible amid the tall grass. She wanted to run back to her pretty flowers, but she needed to find out what was ahead.

I went to Taylors today to sell my books.. I only managed to sell two books.. And i realized that i sold it for kinda cheap.. damm !!but whatever.. not good to take advantage of people...
Went to pyramid with deb and harmeet.. Have lunch in Nando.. Their faces were so funny.. cos the chicken were too spicy for their taste... Tears starting forming in their eyes..
Deb look like she just cried..
The girls were trying to cheer me up today but kinda failed..
U know larr.. when im really in a emo mood, nothing can cheer me up..
even goin to club & drinking..
but thanx for trying tho!! *luv u babess*
Oh thanx for humoring me by sampling all the cookies... =)
Sorry..couldnt spend more time with u guyss ..... =/
catch up again k ??

Had a long talk with deb and harmeet today...
talk bout uni, our hols plan, study plans & relationship..
Deb & her bf, Adrian got back together.. im so happy for u guys.. ! =)

" The grass is always greener on the other side.. It will never seem to be greener on the side you are now with or on "
Deb said that to me and no doubt i agree with her.. i do but sometimes it's hard... i alwis think bout the meaning of that quote..
I tried so hard not to do any sins stuff ...
But what do i get in return? even "sinner" stuff happens to me..

I tried not to talk/ gossip bad stuff bout people..
Because i think it's unhealthy and it's theri own life anyway..
I tried not to cheat on my bf..
because the same thing will happen to u sooner or later..it may not b a 1 day thing.. i may be a 2 year ting..
I tried to do more good deeds..(e.g. donate to any1 that ask for donations if i have the cash)
Because tho u can't help every single person but u r glad to help those that needed it& that approach u..
I tried not to merajuk/whine more..
Because u may think it's cute but others might find it annoying to them& u cant get what u want by doin so.. so y bother to do that?

I did all those that i mention.. i do.. but yet.. *sighs*
i feel bad bout complaining the same probs all the time..
But...
*sighs*
I feel bad to alwis ma fan Jason... (sorrrii Jason)
But...
All questions left unanswered... unattended...
Every single frigging thing is a BIG question mark to me..
All seem so alien to me but yet a part of it is expected ..
I tried so many ways so that my questions r all answered but...
I failed to do so..
I feel so failure right now..
Yes, i do..
I can help any1 but myself..
*huh?*
I think im more of a giver than taker.. i read this article bout being more of a giver than a taker.. & the consequences.
I did a quiz on ' R u a Giver or a Taker?'
and guess what the results r.. yes, if u duno..
im a giver..
I felt kinda pressure sometimes.. cos i hv to pleased every single person.. it makes me so fake at times that i think i had lost my real identity/personality..
dun get me wrong.im stil the same old wei san or kathryn..but it's jus that i duno who r the real me anymore..
some wil jus say im the merajuk wan.. the baby wan..
but that r jus the results of pleasing every1 too much..

I have to get back my personality..
How?that will b another prob..
Can i stop pleasing every1 jus by a snap of finger?
Can i jus ignore every single thing?
Right now, im not sure i can..
This is how whiny,desperate&dependent i had bcum..
I hate myself for being like tat..
i know some of my frens find it annoying as well.
they r jus being nice by not stating it..
Oh god.. i jus realized that i written a super long post..
that im sure it's gona bored the hell of any1 who read tis..
ahh..well..

ps: im sorri if im clingy, annoying to any1... millions of sorrie..

routine...

There's alwis sumting tat happens every month..
no.. it's not pms.. period ..wateva..
but it's sort of like period.. only cums once in a month and even so it is given us, gals a lot of hassles...
Imagine if it happens like maybe twice a month.. wah...
I really duno why there's sumting bad happens in my relationship every month..
d same frigging thing... same probs.. same situation..
wtf is all tis...
wen said sumting to me when i told her bout tis...
"maybe he's having pms or period oso-lar" (laughs loudly)
so funny =p
i duno...
feel weird bout tis ting..
sort of deja-vu..
don't u guys realized tat every motnh there's one post it's bout d same thing..
same probs.. same whine...
he's weird lar..
really dun understand him.. cant predict wat's next ..
*sighs*
*rolls eyes*
damm.. maybe i have not being doin a lot of good deeds..
i hateeeee it .................
i was so excited to start a new year wif a new beginning..
but he had to spoilt it ...
F** ...

New Year Resolutions..

i know!! it's kinda late for me to make a new year resolutions.. but spare me.. i alwis make new year resolutions.. =) but keeping it? ... well, some of it .. =) *ngekz* LolZ..
let's start making new year resolutions !! ... ( so excited... ) hehee

1. Exercising more.. means actually working up a sweat & not d cin-cai workout .. =)
2. Succesfully diet... & no more nvm-lar, eat dy only diet tmw.. !!
3. Study harder... must get into melbourne uni...plan to transfer to melb u from monash..
4. Shop less.. means tat no more buying anyting(even socks!) during d weekend or anyday unless got special occasion.. hehehe
5. "merajuk" less..
6. B more independent!!not rely on bf too much.. im sure i can do it, wen!! (dun laugh!!)
7. Appreciate my frens more...
8. Learn to cook proper meals!! =)

weee.. i made my resolutions.. im happy !! hope tat 2006 wil b beta than 2005...
so much tears& sadness in 2005... there r some happiness, definitely.. but neway..
new year.. new life.. new beginning..

Jus a random post....

it's been awhile since i last blog...
the reason: lazy-larr... =P
well, im not sure whether this is the 100th entry... but oh well, wat the heck..
recently, i read an entry from http://blissfulfacade.blogspot.com/ about labelz...
i agree with her that dj gals are being judge by rumours...
in other words, dj gals r given labelz..
i remember one tiny incidents when i enter cpu in taylors...
ahh.. well... 1st day in cpu is alwis ice-breakin tingy... childish? but it's beta than assignment.. ;P
anyway, when people ask me, "wat high school u used to from?"
me: SMKDJ... u know where..
they will b like, " erm, no offense or anyting.. i hope i dun offense u or ur frens or wateva but i think all dj-ians gals r bimbo & snobbish.. & all they ever care about is spending money & party..
they oso alwis look down on people... "
Erm.. NONE TAKEN?!?
i was like.." ohh.. really, nolar.. u duno us well enuff yet lar... can't judge a book by its cover wert rite?"
they has tis look on their face.. as if they agree wif what i say so that they wont offense me..
wateva... i cant b bother bout that..
i mean come to think bout it, what can i do rite...
they can say wateva they want to say..
i cant stop words from coming out of their mouth..
all i know that my frens know the real me...
the merajuk side of me & the sumtimes quite good-larr of me.. =P
y r people being label?
i admit i used to labe people.. but i had changed due to something... ( *secret* =P)
i realized that it's bad to label someone jus cos they r not like u.. they r not like a clone of u..
GOd makes every single human being special in it's own way ...
if everyone is the same, how can we know who's who..
(wen, if u r reading tis, pls stop makin vomit sounds.. hahaa.. im being erm deep ere.. so ... =] )
i think this post of mine will raise a lot of eye brows... hahaha..
ahh..well.. new year new thinking.. (for now =P )

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